You are not here right now,
And I don't wish for you to be,
But I lie awake at nights,
Thinking do you want to be?
It's not exactly a standstill,
I still live my life,
I smile and laugh,
But that is something that makes the pain hide.
I am stronger today than I ever was before,
Call it a glow up
But I have been distracting myself,
Avoiding this overwhelming sadness, in which I know I will surely drown.
Life looks cheery today,
Things have been calm,
You moved on easily,
And as I am too, I see in forgetting you there is no harm
I see you everywhere,
I think of you more,
The tshirt, the jacket, the notes,
They don't let me forget you mi amor.
I dont miss you,
I miss the feeling,
But I am sure I dont want you,
Little by little I am healing.
I regret it,
But I'm glad it happened,
I am letting go,
But now I know my heart is all blackened
I wish I could delete,
Those pictures, videos, memories and words,
But I can't,
I keep hoping they would someday burn.
I dont deserve love,
That's how I feel,
You killed a part of me,
And somehow, I know it wont ever heal.
