━━━━━━━ ♚ ━━━━━━━The warmth of the dirt cave posed as the only benefit to their otherwise negative situation considering the majority of their supplies were gone, agents of the Sphinx had kidnapped Raxtus, and now they had new non-combatants to protect. But at least they ended up in the warm ground!
The defrosting of Kendra's freezing body almost bolstered her morale enough to contend with Muriel. As soon as the witch had sensed that everyone else had fallen asleep, she had scooted over to Kendra and had cast a simple distraction spell. Kendra had envy at her ease with magic, especially since she knew what the witch was going to ask and Kendra couldn't lie to her. When Muriel had grabbed Kendra's hand to help with setting up their current luxury dirt cave, she had sensed Kendra's lack of magical ability.
But, also, Kendra had never been able to lie to Muriel, because the witch was just too damn perceptive. Muriel was never nice about her observations, either, so it created a loop of negative feedback.
As expected, Muriel narrowed her eyes and immediately cut to the point. "What happened to you?"
With a sigh, she whispered what Muriel had already figured out. "I lost my magic. I over-exhausted myself breaking out of Terrabelle and the stupid sickening crystals sickening. It's gone. Don't tell anyone."
She believed in the structural integrity of Muriel's bunker, but in the darkness, all Kendra could feel was the dirt on all sides compressing her body. The earth hanging over the head. She laid in her resting place already. A mass grave with all the people she was taking with her.
Terror, guilt, and anxiety tumbled through her stomach and she tried to push the thoughts down. She needed a clear mind. That's what her grandparents had always said.
"Can you see me right now?"
Kendra squinted. It was dim, but she could make out Muriel's wrinkled face and her raised eyebrow. Long, wavy gray hair framed her bony countenance. "Not very well."
"It should be pitch black. But not to you. Not to me. Because we have light magic. You didn't lose it, you stupid girl." Her lips curved into a grin, the wart on her chin stretching to accommodate. "Silly."
Indignation flared in Kendra. This was a real problem and Muriel was so unserious. "But why can't I use it?"
"Well, what did I always tell you?"
"That I was lazy and was going to squander all my talent?"
The witch rolled her eyes. "Yes, but what else?"
"Did you ever say anything else?"
"Don't be ungrateful."
Kendra pursed her lips together and whispered back shortly. "I would never."
Muriel sniffed. "Your magic is a part of you—the real you. But, you force yourself and it away. You push your emotions down. You try to be someone different than yourself. Someone different for the King and Queen, for your kingdom, for your little boyfriend. You refuse yourself and in doing so, refuse your magic."
Kendra closed her eyes in shame. She wanted to retort to Muriel that Garreth wasn't her boyfriend, but such things were useless with Muriel.
Desperation had lived in every crevice of Kendra's body since she figured out her inability to access her magic. Even though Muriel's words were harsh and blunt, they offered a solution and assurance that it wasn't the end of the world.
"You need to balance your mind and body. Connect with yourself and your magic will come," Muriel finished.
Kendra could probably do that. What did that take? Some calming exercise, some talking about her feelings? It wasn't pleasant-sounding, but the reward of having her magic back overcame any hesitation. She could even make a checklist.
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Heir to Light | Fablehaven AU
Fanfiction♚ garrethdra royal medieval fantasy AU ♚ Princess Kendra and Prince Seth were the heirs to a lovely kingdom--well, up until three days ago. With no available refuge after their kingdom gets sacked in an attempt to secure the two rare sorcerers, the...