Path of her Anguish

Chapter-19

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"The unseen pain of a mother losing her unborn child is:A heartache for the life that never began."

Maya's POV

"Ma'am your hand."

I blinked my eyes listening to a nurse voice and turned to the girl who was standing beside me waiting to check my blood pressure.

I forwarded my hand and she did her work, wrote down something on her board in her hand and left.

I was dieing in self-shame seeing him care for him so much!

The way he ran towards me, his hands shivering and that slight tears in his eyes told me how he was getting remained of that situation and feeling pain and at the same time fear seeing me like that.

I never thought he would help me when he had carried so much hate for me. But he showed me what precious thing I have lost. Him.

I failed to protect the gem that god as sent for me.

He didn't even feel disgusted when his hands were covered with my blood or when he washing me between my legs too nor when he helped me to wear the sanitary pad.

He could have left me all alone but he didn't, he was scared for me.

Not even once he left my side and kept trying to calm me down and reduce my pain.

Despite all the things I have done to me, all the pain I have fetched on him he forgot all the things in the moment.

I closed my eyes tightly feeling disgusted of myself.

How could I?

I raised my hand slapping myself crying on my own miseries.

I hit myself till I felt my cheeks burning and stinking with pain.

I thought I would die in that pain today.

Still my thighs were aching lightly.

I don't deserve him. A selfish girl like me doesn't deserve him.

I sobbed clutching my chest.

I looked around the hospital room feeling dread.

I don't want to be here!

This is the place where I lost my everything. Every happiness of my life.

I heard the door opening and stopped immediately. It was Ekansh. I wiped off the tears quickly when he came inside.

"I hope you are ok now?"

I nodded not lifting my head.

"There are few tests that need to be done. You have to stay here till tomorrow."

I looked up displeased by his words.
I don't want to stay in the hospital.

"No. I won't stay." I protested.

He stared at me with disbelief and sighed.

"Look! I am not asking you or here to babysit you. Doctor has said it is important. It is your choice, do whatever you want!"

I lowered my eyes blinking the tears back as he went out to attend a call. Will he again leave me here alone? I shivered with that thought. No, he won't do that.. but what if he does?

I kept glancing at the door in fear untill I saw him outside the door. He was doing something in his phone.

He was there outside but didn't came
inside.