Forbidden love|| Percy Weasley

Chapter 77

I was staring outside the hospital window with my arms crossed, my mind being entirely empty. I was too tired to think about anything that had happened the last twenty-four hours and I knew that if I did, I would have started crying again, but I was too weak to even cry. You see, no one ever warns you in life how hard it will be to lose a child you didn't even get to meet. Not knowing that you were almost three months pregnant and lost that little creature that could have saved your life from all that misery that the world around you had. That little sunshine that could lighten up your day when it was all cloudy in your head. No one ever did, and the pain was insufferable. The pain was something that I had never witnessed before and definitely not something that I would like to witness again

I heard the door behind me open, but I was too tired even to turn around to see who it was. But I figured it out seconds later when two hands hugged me from behind. The moment I realised that Percy was finally here, I let myself cry. He turned me around so he could be able to hug me and let me cry on his shoulder. None of us said anything, and the only thing that was heard in the room was my sobs that I couldn't stop now. Because with Percy I didn't have to be the strong person that I wasn't, and I didn't have to fake a smile at a time when I knew that a smile couldn't help to stop the pain. I pulled away from the hug and wiped my nose while looking at the floor

Y/n: I am terribly sorry, Perce 

I said finally looking at him, and he cupped my face leaving a small kiss on my forehead 

Percy: It is not your fault, Ottie 

He said, but I nodded negatively not agreeing with him

Y/n: No it is because if I knew then I would have been more careful, and then it would have been fine. The baby could have been fine

I said between my sobs, and he disagreed ensuring me again that it was not my fault but deep down it felt like it was 

Y/n: You know, losing that little kid right now may be a sign that I will never be able to become a mom in the future and I will hate myself for not giving you the children that you deserve to be the father of. 

I said, making a stop to breathe between my fast words and my sobs, but before he was able to answer I continued with my sentence

Y/n: Also, I would understand if in the future you break up with me to be with someone who would give you a loving family and I promise I will try not to be sad that it won't be with me 

I said, and he let out a small laugh because the nurse had informed him that I would be emotional like this after the medicine they gave me, but then his face turned serious again

Percy: Listen to me, you are my family, and no matter if we become parents in the future or not I would love you just the same as I do now. No one I mean no one would ever make me love you less than I do now, I mean I don't know what you even do Miss Malfoy but by your simple existence, you make me love you more with every day that passes

He said, wiping my tears, and I nodded with a tiny smile on my face. I looked on the floor before he cupped my face, making me look at him. He smiled at me before he kissed me on the lips lovingly. I smiled in the kiss before I wrapped my arms around his neck and when I pulled away, I hugged him tight. Well, the world around it can collapse into a million pieces right now, but what mattered was that I had Percy with me and nothing else mattered to me. I looked outside to see that it was raining, and suddenly an idea came into my mind. I smiled to myself before I took Percy's hand and guided him into the small garden of the hospital while he was saying that I needed to get rest, but I obviously ignored him the entire way until we were outside

I let go of his hand before I walked to the rain, and I felt the water drops hit my face. I smiled at myself looking up to the sky before I turned to Percy who looked hesitant to step in the rain, and he was trying to convince me to return to the room

Y/n: Please come dance with me

I said out of the blue, and he smiled, knowing that there was no way of saying no to me. He walked towards me getting wet from head to toe, but the smile didn't leave his face, not even when I hugged his torso, and we started dancing slowly. He rested his head on mine and I smiled while sniffing my nose from the cold, but it didn't matter to me and what I wanted was for a couple of minutes to completely forget about everything and just enjoy the moment. Because the world every day was getting darker and darker and all I wanted was to appreciate the small things we had the chance to do now as you never know when it will be the last time you will ever be able to do them

Percy: It is us against the world, right?

He said, whispering to me and I nodded with a smile while rubbing his back slowly

Y/n: Us against the world ginger

" When the night was full of terrors

And your eyes were filled with tears
When you had not touched me yet

Oh, take me back to the night we met"

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Hello dear readers,

The reason for this chapter is that I wanted to talk about a certain fear that girls my age or in their early twenties are facing nowadays and after a talk I had with my friends I decided to add this into the story. That is the fear of not being able to become a mother as an adult or losing a child while pregnant. So my purpose was to make sure to help every young lady be able to realise that everything happens for a reason, and we can't do something to change it no matter how hard we try. I also hope this chapter will be a hug to your worries and fears and help you realize that one day everything you have dreamed of will become true 

Love, 

Emily<3