Yours Forever❤

This definitely is not the end of the world.

                           Ishika Pathak

"Hey.. Where are you lost?" Riti asked nudging me as we were both returning to the party from washroom.

"Nothing." I said.

I can take care of you and your heart better than anyone else did.

His words were repeating in my head like a damn tape recorder.

Ohh God!
I don't even have any clarity about my own feelings and here this guy is making me crazy.

"Hey.. I'm getting a call. You go in. I'll just come." She said and I nodded still in my own world.

Devansh has created havoc in my head.

When I entered the party I suddenly felt suffocated with all the people and my own thoughts.

I need to clear my mind.

I just heard a specific laugh and I turned my head towards that direction.

There stood Pranav in a corner laughing with his friends when one of them aked,

"You seem much happier now. You know with Nisha. Maybe you were right when you thought you were stuck with Ishika." One of them said and I rolled my eyes.

Stuck with me? Him?

"I didn't feel like taking efforts. I felt very stagnant with her, honestly. Since the past year I have had no feelings. And, I knew she would throw a fit about me leaving. She was desperate for my attention. Now, I feel refreshed." He replied and the old Ishika would have started bawling her eyes out. But, I felt nothing while I was listening to him. Absolutely nothing.

Why would he want to put in efforts?
I was doing all of it.

Something just snapped in me and I walked towards the group with a smile and Pranav was shocked to see me there.

"Hey, Ishika. How are you?" Manav who was standing with Pranav asked.

"I am great. What about you guys? Having fun talking about his ex-girlfriend?" I asked chuckling and Pranav chuckled nervously.

"Uhh no. We were just discussing... Manav started and I interrupted him saying

"Yaa discussing about how he was stuck in his relationship and how he looked happy now." I said with a sweet smile.

"I just think you would have been a better man if you would have told me on my face that for the past year you felt stuck with me." I said shrugging.

"But, now we can't change the fact that you have just been a coward all this time. Running away without solutions making it look like I am at fault." I said irritated and he clenched his jaw.

I could see I was getting on his nerves the way he had clenched his fist.

"We can talk about this later." He said gritting his teeth glaring at me.

"You could have said the same thing when he started talking about our relationship. The least you could do was respect what we had." I said glaring back at him.

I don't desperately need his attention anymore!

"And yeah, I don't want to talk about it. Just that, you got a chance to express what you felt before you left. I never got a chance to tell you what I think. So I just wanted to tell you what I think. That you are a fucking coward." I said shrugging and he was still glaring at me to shut me up.

I knew I hit the wrong nerve.
He hates anyone tarnishing his image in the public.

"I think we should-- he started as he walked towards me and held my hand tightly when suddenly I felt a whiff of manly cologne and a gentle grip on my wrist removing my hand from his.

Devansh pulled me behind him by my wrist as he glared at Pranav.

"Do not even dare to come near her. Touching her toh is even out of the question." He said in a low voice while his eyes were shooting fire at Pranav.

"She was the one who started creating a scene." Pranav said glaring at me but Devansh was quick to cover me behind him.

"Leave from here. Otherwise I will be the one creating a scene and you won't like it one bit." He said lowly in his stern voice.

"You have called me in your party to insult me?" He scoffed and by Devansh's stiff posture I knew he was angry.

"If I wanted to do anything with you I would have done much worse than insulting. Devansh Malik does not waste his words on people like you. Leave." He said in a low menacing tone and they left.

Devansh turned towards me while I stared at him. He looked at me worried.

"You okay?" He asked staring at me with his ever so soft eyes.

His eyes...
He makes me want to just sit there and look into them.

"I-- uh-- I just need some air." I said closing my eyes and moving away from him.

I am again walking on the same path.
The same path that is going to lead me to destruction.

It is going to be either his destruction or mine.

Groaning I just walked out of there wanting to be somewhere alone. Getting into the lift I went on the terrace for some fresh air.

I smiled the moment I saw the view.
Clear night sky looked absolutely amazing with stars shining.

I walked towards the parapet and sat on it with my legs dangling as it was wide enough and it had another concrete floor below to prevent falling.

Have I moved on completely?
No!

Do I want to move on.
Of course yess.

Gradually I have been realising that I was just not able to accept the fact that he has left. I won't say whatever happened has been very good but now that I see we were almost done for about a year.

I was just trying to give my everything for the relationship to survive not understanding that actually there was no relationship left.

I understood that Pranav leaving me is not the end of the world. Sure, it took time but who can I blame? I was just trying in my own way to hold not knowing any other way to go forward.

I still don't know how to completely forget him but I just know that I am going to give my 200% to get out of it.

This definitely is not the end of the world.

But am I ready to give another chance to another man?