I Love You, I'm Sorry / Otto Hightower / Vaera Targaryen

20. Ruined It

Kissing otto was amazing.

Vaera was just as surprised to have thought such a thing.

Otto pulled back staring down at her.

"Wow." Vaera whispered

"you're adorable," he returned, dropping a kiss to her nose.

Vaera wrapped her arms around him feeling at peace.

"I feel like we're almost there Blakely," everly decided

"I say we get there in two days." Blakely deemed.

"I say we get there there in one. Mr otto! Drive really really fast." Everly decided "I have to win."

But suddenly he didn't want the journey to go so fast because he liked traveling just him vaera and the children. When they got old town, things would be different. They would have the whole castle to roam. They would have lots of people surrounding them. Wanting to meet the princess vaera. Young handsome men no doubt. His son, no doubt.

Otto adored his alone time with Vaera and knew it was coming to an end when they got to their destination. 

Vaera was tending to little Josh when Otto saw tears streaming down Alyssa's face. ALyssa had been quiet most of the journey only speaking to her mother so Otto didnt get a chance to connect with the girl but now he wished he had because he didnt know what happened or how to help. 

"Tears. Oh no. Where is your mother? Vaera!" Otto declared. "Vaera!"

Fathers were for discipline mothers were pretending to wounds   That was how it always been with him and his wife. But now a little girl was crying and he didn't know what to do and he so badly wanted to help her.  She didn't look hurt. He didn't see any blood.

"Vaera!" he knew the way to help her was to get her mother. Vaera peered out from changing joshs dirty nappy.

"Oh baby!"  Vaera declared finishing up quickly before passing Josh off to his sister. "Alyssa what happened?"

She whimpered illegibly as her mother came to her side, holding her   Vaera soothed her whimpers but alyssa kept crying.

" my heart what happened?" She looked to otto for clarification, but he didn't know. Then suddenly she saw it and she realized what made her daughter cry.

"It's ruined!"

Her stuffed animal.  A little bear. It was from her daddy. She clutched it close crying

"I can have another made the moment we get to old town." Otto suggested but it just made alyssa cry more.

"It was from Rob." Vaera whispered holding Alyssa. She didnt know how it got ruined but the stuffing was falling out and the arm was tearing from the body. "I can fix it." Vaera offered kissing Alyssa's head. "I can fix it, good as new."

"It will never be new, you cant fix it!" Alyssa shouted marching off. 

"Alyssa!" Vaera begged chasing after her. "Alyssa honey, wait." 

Otto looked to the twins as they stared back at each other suddenly very quiet before they got very accusatory. 

"What did you do?"

"ME?" Blakley demanded. "What did you do?"

"Me? How dare you!" Everly countered. "This is your fault not mine-"

"I dont think it is either of your faults." Otto cut in. 

"You did it?" Blakely demanded. 

"Heavens no." Otto assured. "It was an old toy, worn with love, I'm sure it was slowly pulling apart... I dont think anyone is to blame."

"Can you fix it for her?" Everly questioned, big violet eyes staring up at him. "I dont like it when she cries." 

"Me either." Otto agreed. "And your mother can fix it."

"You dont know how to."

"I'm not so good with a needle and thread." He admitted. 

"You just stab it over and over again with a needle and thread until its good." Everly told him. 

"I will keep that in mind but I dont want to ruin in further... just in case." 

"I miss him." Alyssa whispered. 

"Me too baby."

"You kissed him." Alyssa countered. Vaeras heart dropped. 

"I... you saw?" She whispered. Alyssa nodded. 

"Dont you want daddy back?"

"I do but he is not coming back, " Vaera countered. "And Otto has been good to us... I'm sorry you had to see that." 

"I want daddy." 

"I know baby." Vaera held her close. The rest of the kids were too little to understand, but Alyssa had loved her father much like Vaera loved Viserys, there was no healing from this wound.