WILDFLOWER

18

august 3, 2023

paige pov

how could i be so dumb? i should've just answered her. i let my stupid crush get to my head.

i reach over and grab my phone from the coffee table next to my couch as the thunder booms outside. the time says 20:37.

i'm doing it. i'm going to her place.

claire pov

i've decided to go to bed early tonight so im brushing my teeth when i hear a knock on my door.

who is here at 9?

i walk over to my door and open it to see her.

i begin to close to door but she stops me. "claire, please," she begs. "i just want to talk."

i roll my eyes. "so did i when you were ignoring me."

she holds the door open with a lustful look on her face. "please. just let me in. i will be out of your hair in, like, ten minutes."

i cave with a sigh. "fine. ten minutes."

her face brightens with a smile. i clear the doorway so she can come in and sit on my couch. i sit down a few feet away from her.

"what do you want?" i ask.

her face turns serious. "i already know that there is nothing i can do to make up for what i did. it was fucking awful." my jaw drops at the use of a curse word coming out of her mouth. "i just want to explain some things. you're my best friend. the only person who i ever see myself truly connecting with. i'm awful for what i did. i will never forgive myself and i don't expect you to either. there's a reason i did what i did. i wasn't upset because you ditched me. i was upset because i was so focused on the fact that i have the biggest crush on you that i got pissed when i saw you with somebody else."

i raise my eyebrows. "what?"

she sighs. "i've never not seen you in a romantic way. i've pushed it down for so long. i knew that i could never have you because you were with sal and you're straight. you're just so perfect in my eyes. everything about you. your imperfections are perfect to me. i can't deny it anymore."

all i want to do is tell her how much i like her and kiss her so hard. but i can't. "okay."

"that's it?" she questions with a shocked look on her face.

i nod. "you already said you knew what was going to happen coming into this. i don't know what else you expected. if i did feel the same way, i still wouldn't do anything. you betrayed my trust. you hurt me so bad, paige."

she looks down at her lap as tears swell in her eyes.

i stand up and start to walk into my bedroom alone. "also, im bisexual for your information."

A/N- i used to be scared to write depressing things but then i realized that all the gays are depressed.

ily

BYE QUEENS