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Chapter Sixteen

Monday

I'm having lunch with Kassandra today. Since the first time we met, I never asked her about actual parenting. I wanted to confirm with Chauvanie what our parenting style would be, but we already know the awkwardness that happened yesterday.

nuh have time a focus pan him right now

I settle on a purple ruffle square neck cami dress with spaghetti straps, and even though it's a little hot, I decide to wear my hair down and pair it with my white Tory Burch sandals and a white purse. I agreed to meet at Kassandra's house since we're trying to save all the money we can for baby stuff, but she insisted we go out, so I met her at Masala Wok.

We meet outside and enter together. 

ayyyye lady eva look clean eno 

stay good Kass

Once we're inside, we sit and order.

Kassandra: "How have you been, baby mother?" I make a face, and then we both laugh; she knows that means it's been crazy.

de doll stress out and sexually frustrated 

Kassandra: "Dat bad?"

Asha: "Me did bawly bawly from morning, but even more so now, an' me annoy meself at times. Me always hot, an' feel tormented."

not me a snitch pah meself

Kassandra: "Girl, uh preachin' to de choir. Zia was my only 'good' pregnancy, an' after Romari, I swear I was done because of how traumatic Analeia and his pregnancies were. Me bawl every day, hated Henry all nine months for both pregnancies, couldn't get along with my mom who was just trying to help. Me was a mess," she tells me.

so me aguh always hate Chev

dat cyaa be

how me hate him and want him at the same time?

Asha: "Uh neva like uh husband?" I ask her. Maybe that's why the kids look so much like him; you know what they say—if you hate someone when you're pregnant, the baby will come out looking like them.

i dont mind my baby loking like his/her daddy thou

maybe me can continue hate him likkle longer

Kassandra: "Hate, despise, all of the above," she emphasizes, and I laugh.

like step-madda-in-law like step-daughta-in-law?

Asha: "Fi me, it's de opposite. An' me cyaa tell if it's just my natural attraction to him or my hormones a increase it, but me affi bite me lip or squeeze me toes together so me nuh devour Chauvanie," I tell her, laughing a little from the embarrassment. Now I regret telling her; she'll probably go back to tell him, and things will be even more awkward.

  Oh lord, fuck me.

why me tell har dat?

chat too much

Kassandra: "Oh, it's normal fi uh libido increase too, man. Unno nah harm de baby, so have all de fun uh want," she tells me. 

miss call uh soon and tell him dat

I decide not to open this entire dialogue to her about being a one-night stand with Chauvanie and how we aren't together and haven't even established what our relationship is, so I change the subject subtly.

Asha: "Yeah, I know, but me really just a try focus pan de baby an' get everything done in time while balancing school."

Kassandra: "Oh Mama, you're so fearless, and I commend you for balancing both. It's really admirable, but uh know uh nuh alone. Anything uh want, we're just a phone call away."