Imagine Me And You

Chapter 10

"kinakabahan talaga ako para bukas." Sheena nervously stated. We're talking via video call and I can see how nervous she looks.

It's been almost a week since our last date and it made me so happy. Super comfortable kasama ni Sheena. And to add, I'm also happy kasi may endearment na kami ni Sheena.

"Everything's gonna be fine. You're great. We practice a lot, and just trust yourself." I motivate her.

Tomorrow's competition is really a nerve-wracking experience kasi hindi lang kami makakatapat ng magagaling na school, we're also need to defend our title.

First competition din ito ni Sheena kasi last year na pagsali niya sa club, tapos na yung competition.

"Get some sleep bebe, I'll fetch you tomorrow." Sabi ko kay Sheena. She heave a sigh and smile at me timidly.

"Okay. Goodnight bebe." We ended the call and after a few minutes, natulog na ako.

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Nandito kami sa grandstand ng school namin. Since kami yung reigning champion, sa school ginanap yung competition.

A lot of students from different schools attended. Some have face paint of their school, and some wears their school t-shirt.

I can't help but to feel a tons of pressure right now. Kanina pa ito pagsundo ko kay Sheena pero hindi ko lang pinahalata sa kanya.

As their leader, ako yung mas nakakaramdam ng pressure. Maraming bagay, what ifs ang tumatakbo sa isip ko ngayon that causes me to feel anxiety.

My hands start to shake. As much as I tried to make it stop, it keeps on going. My heart is pounding so loud that I can barely hear the people around me.

Umalis ako sa pwesto namin and tumakbo papunta sa locker room kung saan kami nagbihis. Ako lang mag-isa dito sa locker room. I sat on the very corner and cover my ears.

The sound of my heartbeat is loud and I can feel it pounding inside me. Huminga ako ng malalim to calm myself but still not working.

My hands are trembling, my eyes start to well up and my lips quiver. Pakiramdam ko rin ay parang tinutusok ako ng karayom sa bawat parte ng katawan ko.

Hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili ko na umiyak. I'm clutching my chest and paminsan-minsan na hinahampas ko ito because it starts to hurt.

Get it together Gwen!

Everyone is expecting for you! You have to give your best!

Stop being a coward!

Don't humiliate yourself!

Tinakpan ko ulit yung tenga ko dahil sa mga bagay-bagay at salita na naririnig kong sinasabi ng utak ko.

Habang tumatagal ay unti-unti na akong nahihirapang huminga. Kahit anong pilit kong gawin, naghahabol parin ako ng hininga.

"S-stop... P-please.." I staggered trying to catch my breath. My eyes are still closed and I can't find the strength to open it.

"Gwen!" I heard it in muffle tone because my system is still invaded by anxiety.

I felt a hand on my cheeks. "Open your eyes for me bebe."

I recognise that voice

I open my eyes and my vision is blurry. I felt Sheena's thumbs caressing my cheeks. When my vision cleared, I saw worry in her eyes.

"That's it. You're doing great." She gently whispers. She lean forward and pinagdikit niya yung mga noo namin.

"Breathe with me bebe." She softly stated. "Inhale," I inhale and hold it for seconds. "Exhale." I released the air.