SPECTRAL (BxB)

-04-

-AKIRO-

It's winter and Tamaro's birthday is coming. Five days from now is his birthday he is turning eighteen. It's his birthday so it means new year is coming also. Sometimes I ask myself. Is this a coincidence? My birthday is September 2 the start of BER months and Tamaro birthday is December 31, the end of BER months. It is meant to be? Or I am being assuming?

We are back from Malaysia and all I can say Malaysia is one of the memorable places to me. Tamaro being naughty in our whole stay in Malaysia. There is time that we shower together to be honest I almost jump to him and kiss him. We are both naked in the shower and putting soap to each other. Shit, you didn't know how much I control myself not to grab him in my arms.

He always kisses me and I just let him. He didn't do that to other members he just did that to me. Only me? Should I assume now that he like me also? This is so hard. They said action louder than words but without a word is confusing. It doesn't mean he is sweet to me he already like me. I need an assurance word from him. But what if he just sees me as a little brother? My heart skip for a bit with that thought.

What if he doesn't like me? What if he said I love you to me as a brother? What should I do? Should I ask him? But we are both young and I am just sixteen years old. I think I am going to focus in our career first before my feelings to him.

A day before his birthday I talk to the members that I want to surprise him. Even just a simple cake for him to blow. Everyone agreed and prepare everything. Even Manager Brandon our manager helps us. We prepared everything what we are going to do on his birthday. He is still sleeping and we woke up earlier. We put some ballons and the cake is already here. Manager Brandon is the one who bring it. Joshua cooks noodles for us to share.

I woke up him because we have a practice later. He got down on his bed and when he goes out the room, we blow the confetti and sing a birthday song to him. I am holding the cake in front of him smiling widely. He was surprise what he saw. He covers his mouth and tears flows in his eyes. We all hug him but I kiss him on the cheeks and hug him.

"Happy birthday Tamaro," I whisper on his ears.

"Thank you, baby," he said. My heart skip for a moment. What did he call me? Baby? Tamaro Saito just call me Baby? What the f*ck? Is this real? What's that mean? Tamaro should be the one who will surprise not me.

I acted like I didn't hear what he said. We gathered in a small table in the living room and eat together. I was looking at him when he laughs. I am captivated with his beauty. I think the I am drowning with his handsomeness. While everyone was having fun, I was staring at him in a daze. Jemuel elbowed me causing me to come back to my senses.

"He might melt with your stare," He whispered to me. I looked at him with surprise.

"What are you saying?" pretend I don't know.

"Oh, Akiro. You think I don't know the way you stare at Tamaro?" he said smiling. I suddenly looked at the members to see if they could hear.

"What are you talking about, maybe you're just imagining it," I said and continued eating.

"As You said so," He answered with a soft laugh.

I didn't mind him and I continue eating. I am that obvious? Yes, I will admit that sometimes I lost my taught when I look at him. What should I do? He is really handsome. After we eat. We clean our mess and we are getting ready to go to our practice. Tamaro is changing in the room when I go inside. I get my gift to him.

"Tamaro, happy birthday," I said and give the simple bracelet.

"For me?" He said excitedly. I nod and rub my nape. Yes, I am shy to give this to him.