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Louis Tomlinson.
Lina has been crying for hours. She's 6, so a month to her is a lifetime. She fully thinks that Harry is just gone forever. Despite me telling her otherwise.
He's only been gone for a week but my god everything has gone to shit. I'm not sure what Aline and Vada went through but they don't talk, Zayn is just sort of, attached to Lydia.
He hasn't said a word in five days. I think it's about Ellie but it's also about Harry and so it's worse.
Aline has been with Lina since Harry left so I'm almost sure that's partly why her and Vada grew apart. But it's making me sad.
Knowing everything that Lydia told me about Vada, seeing him smile was apparently rare. But he hasn't smiled since Aline left.
I've tried to cheer him up, I've stayed with him but he just doesn't seem to have it in him anymore.
Zayn is staying at Lydia's, Aline is staying at Kaitlins and Vada just doesn't come home anymore.
I didn't really want to be alone, but they were all going through their own thing. I was just sat here at the edge of his bed, wondering how the fuck it went to shit so quickly.
It just didn't make any sense to me, Harry leaves and now suddenly it's all just awful. I can't go and visit him apparently, I'm not sure why. But it was awful.
He wrote me a letter, I just haven't opened it yet because I wasn't sure I was going to get through it without crying over nothing.
I tried to do his homework for him but I didn't understand any of it so I was screwed with that.
And the pictures, he wanted pictures but I had none. "Where is everybody?" John had been gone all week, trying to fix the mess with Harry.
"I don't know anymore. I stopped checking in." He kneels down in front of me. "What's wrong? What do you mean stopped checking in?"
"Vada and Aline started arguing, Zayn got sad. They all went somewhere else couple days after Harry left. I've just been, sat here."
"You've had nobody with you? Are you feeling okay? You're shaking." I shrugged. "I had a panic attack, it's fine."
"What the fuck is wrong with them. Come on." He lifts me up from the couch. Hugging me tight. "I'm so sorry. I would've been here sooner I just had so much I had to do. I'll fix it I promise."
"It's fine." I picked up the letter from the table, sticking it in my back pocket as we walked down to his car. "Fucking assholes."
I thought maybe the bar would just be empty. But they were all there. Every single one of them. It made me a little mad.
They hadn't been home all week and now they're suddenly fine. "Hey you're here."
I walked past them all like a fucking child, moving outside before I had the time to cry. Pulling my knees up to my chest.
