My Annoying Brother

7

7.

I really can't breathe right now. There's no way they did this to me. I feel like the ground disappearing from underneath me. I think I'm going to fall down. I can't feel my legs anymore. Vernon gave me such a big push. I gathered up all of my courage. Since they already call him here and did all this, I should take a chance. Good thing Joshua isn't standing there facing me. I'm more comfortable talking to his back about this.

His hands are his pockets. He is standing there so confidently. I look downward as I felt shy. I speak softly. "I-I-I like you, a lot. I've been liking you for a long time now. Since the day I fell in the corridor. You are just my type. I know you are liked by a lot of girls and I'm no one special. But I still wanted you to know that I like you."

"If you already know that you are not special then why did you dare to propose me?"

I look up at him as he already was facing me for, I don't know how long. Since I started speaking? I should have known that it was something done by Min Gyu and Vernon and couldn't have possibly done it right. It wasn't Joshua. It was Jeong Han. And I should've known that Joshua doesn't put his hands in his pocket usually. It's Jeong Han who always has his hands in his pocket. I feel so stupid.

"You should know your place."

He took the rose from my hand and threw it away. I felt so sad and angry. I got humiliated by someone I hate and moreover he thinks I like him. This couldn't have been worse. Or maybe I'm wrong. As Jeong Han leaves, I look back at Mon Gyu and Vernon waiting for me at the door of the rooftop and I notice Joshua. No. I want to tell both of them that it was just a misunderstanding. 

I hate this look Joshua has on his face now. I hate how Jeong Han talked to me. I hate how my friends did all this without talking to me first. I hate this whole situation right now. I wish I could just delete myself now.

Min Gyu and Vernon ran to me to talk to me after Jeong Han left.

"I want to talk to her about something. Can you guys give us some privacy?"

I felt that Joshua was angry at me. I don't know why. Maybe he thinks I like Jeong Han, anyone would if they saw this whole thing happen and because we were somewhat close, but I never told him about it he is mad at me? I don't know and for some reason I don't want to know. I don't want to face him now.

Min Gyu and Vernon leave us alone.

"So, you like Jeong Han? How come you never told me about it? Maybe I could've helped you?"

His voice............doesn't sound mad. It is rather surprisingly soft and comforting. I want to tell him that I don't like Jeong Han. I like him. But for some reason I started crying. He came towards me and hugged me tightly. I started crying more. His hug is so warm and comforting. I want him to hold me like this forever.

"It's okay. He is a little bit cold towards everyone. Don't worry. I'll help you approach him again. So don't cry anymore."

Joshua is so kind. But I don't want him to hook me up with his brother. Someone please tell him that. How did things turn out like this.