My first and last (MarkRen)

14

It's been a couple weeks since Mark spent the night and they have been struggling to find the time to be alone. The weekend after, they were going to go on a date but Yuyi ended up getting sick so they had to cancel. They've still been texting a lot and calling some nights after he goes to bed but Renjun is starting to feel hopeless. He is so afraid Mark won't want to put up with him anymore because they can't properly date.

It's Thursday night and Yuyi is asleep. Renjun tries to call Mark but he's not answering so he just sulks on his couch as he watches a little tv.
After a half hour he decides to go to bed himself. He's been wallowing in so much doubt the last few days that he's better off sleeping and not thinking about the relationship he can't seem to manage properly.

After shutting all the lights off he goes to lock the door when his phone vibrates in his pocket. It's a simple text from Mark that says to open the door. He's quite shocked when he looks through the peep hole to see him standing there in a hoodie with flowers in his hand. He giggles quietly and opens the door.
"Mark?" He questions.
"Hi, I hope this is a good time?" He asks softly as he hands over the flowers. Renjun looks around then nods as he pulls him straight into his room. Mark sets the flowers down and hugs him softly.

"I'm sorry, I should have probably asked if this is ok first but I just needed to see you in person, alone, even if it's only a few minutes." Renjun shakes his head that is still leaning into his chest.
"No, it's perfect. I really wanted to see you too." Renjun pulls him to his bed and has him lay down before he locks his door and crawls into bed and snuggles to him.
He doesn't even realize he's crying until Mark wipes his cheek with his hand.
"What's wrong baby?" He asks softly. Renjun sighs and clutches him tighter.
"I just feel like I'm failing at this. You deserve to be with someone you can see whenever you want, and I feel like everything is going to fall apart because of me and I just like you so much and I don't want to lose this." He sighs again and says the words he never thought he would.
"I will understand if you don't want to see me anymore. I know this has been hard for us and I just can't think of a way to make it work better." Mark hums and lifts his chin before softly kissing his lips, something both have yearned for.

Mark smiles into the kiss and squeezes him.
"Baby, listen. There have been so many nights these past couple weeks that I've ached for you. What I wouldn't give to fall asleep every night with you in my arms like this." Renjun's eyebrows shoot up at the implication of those words.
"It feels kind of silly to say this but even getting to see your face in the mornings when you drop Yuyi off, still makes my heart flutter with excitement." Renjun pecks his lips.
"Me too." Mark nods with a big grin.
"I've been trying all week to think of the perfect date to whisk you away on this weekend so I could ask you if you would want to be exclusive, like officially be my boyfriend but I just wasn't sure how to go about it with Yuyi, you know?" He looks at Renjun who has more tears spilling out as he softly smiles at Mark.
"You actually want to be boyfriends? Officially? Even though this is so hard?" Mark smiles softly and kisses him deeply.
"I want this so bad." He says hugging Renjun tighter to him.

Renjun crawls to lay on top of him and kisses him before snuggling into his neck.
"I really thought you would get tired of all this secrecy all ready." He says softly.
"Baby, we've only just begun, we have time to figure this out. But I did have an idea I'd like to run by you." Renjun pops his head up and looks in his eyes.
"What if we went out sometimes with Yuyi. We don't have to say we are dating but he can think we are friends hanging out or whatever?" Renjun smiles.
"I think that might be a good idea, but what about the fact that we barely get to see each other alone?" Mark smiles and pecks his lips.
"Well, I'm here now, I don't mind coming here like this to see you and when we can make a special date for each other we will." Renjun hugs him and kisses his neck.

"I want to take you and your son to the carnival this weekend, what do you say?" Renjun giggles.
"It's perfect." He whispers.
"How long will you stay tonight?" Renjun asks as he kisses his neck.
"As long as you want me?" Renjun hums against his skin.
"I want you to stay all night." He whispers.
"Ok." He says as Renjun continues leaving feather light kisses on his neck and face. After only a minute of this Mark can't take it anymore and rolls them over and lays between his legs. He kisses him deeply as Renjun clutches his neck.

"Is it bad that I want you right now?" Mark asks softly. Renjun smiles as he shakes his head.
"I think it's a good thing actually." He says before trying to strip Mark of his clothing. Mark chuckles and stands. He tries so hard to be quiet as he hastily slips off his sweats. He does fine until he trips and luckily lands on the bed. He looks up as Renjun is giggling like a madman.
Renjun is lying there already undressed as Mark shakes off his embarrassment and finishes the task. He crawls back over him and kisses his lips.
"I know, I know, you already want me, I didn't have to break out my sexiest move but I did, so deal with it." He says as Renjun tries desperately not to cackle out loud.
"I don't think I'll be able to keep my hands off you now." He says softly after his laughter dies down.
"Good, I'm glad my charms worked." Renjun smiles into his kiss.

As things start to heat up again Renjun can't get enough. His hands are out of his control as he tries to touch every part of Mark he can reach but it isn't enough. He pushes Mark to lay on his back as he goes down between his legs. Mark swallows thickly at the sight. He watches closely as Renjun's thick pouty lips kiss up and down his hard cock. He holds back a groan as he starts kitten licking his way around him.
"Oh fuck baby, so good." He says quietly. Renjun hums with his lips pressed around his tip making him have to bite his own lip to hold back the sounds wanting to escape from deep within.

He starts sucking him into his mouth as deep as he can. When he feels himself start to choke he pulls back a little and uses his hand where he can't reach.
Mark is going insane under him and Renjun feels a sense of pride that he is bringing this out in him.
Soon Mark has to stop him. He crawls back up and Mark takes one look at his puffy lips in the dim light of the bedside lamp and attaches his mouth to him. Renjun's head is swimming, just this kiss is hot enough to make his tummy swirl with anticipation.

Mark decides he needs to hurry and open him up as his need grows every second. Renjun quickly digs the lube out of his bedside drawer and hands it to him. He coats his fingers generously and starts to ease them inside. Renjun hisses at first but it quickly turns to small whimpers as Mark finds a good rhythm.

Their breaths are heavy as they lay pressed together connected in more ways than one. Renjun feels so much in such a small amount of time for a grown man who's willing to sneak around like a teenager just to be with him. He feels like his heart will explode. He knows it's too soon to say those three words but it doesn't stop them from bubbling in his chest.

As the end is closer, Mark attaches their lips to try to keep both of them from being too loud. He can feel Renjun squeezing around him and knows he is just as close. He holds Renjun as close as possible as they ride out their high together.
When they have stilled Mark kisses his face all over, before moving back to his lips. He stares deep in his eyes. His mind screaming at him not to say what his heart feels. He gives him one last kiss before slowly pulling out.

He goes into Renjun's bathroom and cleans himself before bringing him a wash cloth and gently cleaning him. He then crawls into bed and holds Renjun close to him.
"Good night baby." He whispers.
"Don't worry, I'll set my alarm for five and be out of here before he wakes up." Renjun smiles and pulls back to hand him his phone before shutting the lamp off and falling into a peaceful slumber in Mark's arms.

True to his word he wakes to his alarm at five and kisses Renjun before getting up and dressed. Renjun throws on a long shirt and walks him to the door.
"Thank you, for last night. I think I needed that more than I knew. And don't ever mistake my doubts in myself as doubt in you. You continue to show me everyday why you are the right choice." Renjun whispers softly before kissing his lips.
"See you later." Mark says with a huge grin. Renjun nods.
"Come back any time, boyfriend." Renjun whispers with a giggle. Mark laughs and kisses him once more before backing away.

Renjun goes back to his bed and snuggles into his pillows. He doesn't fall asleep again as he just lays there reliving every perfect moment from the night before. Maybe things will be ok after all, he thinks as he smiles to himself.