Age is Just a Number (BTS) - 18+

Chapter 26 - Are you OK?

"I'm freaking out," Yoongi said out of the blue and the other two sets of eyes in the room pivoted to look at him.

"What about hyung," Hobi asked, reaching to pour Yoongi another drink, noticing the slightly intense look in his eyes.

"I told Kat I loved her," Yoongi answered, sipping at his glass and they both gaped before quickly shutting their mouths, knowing this was monumental for Yoongi and not wanting to interrupt his thoughts.

"When did this happen," Jimin asked, trying to stay casual but inside he was fizzing for his hyung. All they wanted for each other was for them to be happy.

"Last night. We'd just slept together and it came out without even thinking about it," Yoongi said, giving more information than he likely normally would if he hadn't been drinking a little first.

"Are you freaking out because it was after sex," Jimin asked and he shook his head.

"I mean, it's not ideal but it's not the reason I'm overthinking all this. It felt right in the moment to say it and it still does."

"Maybe you weren't ready," Hobi said and Yoongi shook his head.

"I was, I am. But I still can't help freaking out because it's been a while since I've felt feelings this strong and it feels like a lot."

"She said it too right? She told you she loves you?" Jimin said, coming to sit closer to his hyung, knowing he appreciated the support even if he didn't voice it and Yoongi played with his glass, running his fingers around the top of it and tapping them, deep in thought.

"Yes, and I accepted her feelings when she said it but didn't really reply. That was a few weeks ago. And before you ask, I didn't feel like I needed to say it back just because she did. And I haven't felt from her any change because I didn't say it back the moment Kat did. It was just the right time now."

"So why are you freaking out then if it felt right?"

"Because Hoba," Yoongi said, sitting back with a sigh, "it makes me feel a little scared."

Jimin wrapped his arm around Yoongi's shoulder and leaned close, Yoongi letting him. His members knew him, they knew his past and he could let his guard down safely with them knowing they'd have his back. "Scared of what?"

"Partly the future, it's a big word. And our future, BTS, it's always complicated to talk about."

"You know we're all in agreement hyung," Hobi said, patting Yoongi's knee. "When any one of us wants to settle down with someone, it will be time to enter a new chapter. It doesn't mean we stop making music, we all love it too much to stop. But it will evolve so we can enjoy our personal lives too. Maybe we're just getting closer to that time for you."

"Maybe," Yoongi conceded, lost in thoughts of his feet up on her coffee table as they leaned on each other and watched something together. Peaceful, soft moments rolling through his head, the kind that brought calm.

"What do you feel when you're with her," Hobi asked and Yoongi glanced away as he answered, embarrassed before the words even left his mouth.

"It just feels right Hoba," he said and Hobi glanced at Jimin, eyebrows raised.

"So, then really, what are you actually freaking out about then hyung," Jimin asked and Yoongi looked back at him and sighed again.

"That it's all too good to be true. I'm just waiting for the other shoe to drop."

"Or," Hobi said, squeezing his knee, "or maybe this is exactly what you've been waiting for."

"See, that's kind of what I'm afraid of," Yoongi said, swallowing back the rest of his glass and looking off into nothing, locked deep in his thoughts as his brothers smiled between themselves. Yoongi might take a while to come round but they knew he would get to the point that they could already see. That Kat made him a better man, giving him a place to rest, something he did so little and he was only going to fall more in love with her, something they were already enjoying watching.