His Redemption (MxM)

Chapter 57

Hewitt

I have never gone this long without talking to Stefano, not once since I've known him, it's been pushing two weeks since we last spoke, ever since that day I had that huge argument with him, I haven't spoken to him, he has tried reaching out, but I've been the one ignoring him, it's not because I'm still mad at him for what happened between Luke and I, yes I'm still angry about that, but I'm more ashamed of myself for how I lashed out on him.

Truth be told, I don't think it's his fault what happened between Luke and I, he may have said some things that pushed Luke to tell me that.... Thing, but I don't think he made Luke to.... I can't even bring myself to say it, because I don't want to believe that Luke could be that... I don't wanna call him stupid, but it's kind of naive, I mean we were only hooking up and he had to .....

I sighed out heavily, speaking of Luke, I haven't spoken to him or seen him, actually I haven't seen any of them since that day, not even Matteo and that's a new one, because usually he'd be talking down my ear about how it's stupid of me to be fighting with Stefano.

I still can't believe Luke said something like that to me, even after I had extensively told him that both of us fooling around was just for the fun of it, for the pleasure and nothing more.
I don't feel that way for him, I don't think I ever will.
Sure sex with him is good, actually the best I've had in a long while, but that's just it, I'm with him for the thrill and nothing more.

And ever since he said that thing to me, I haven't been able to sleep or even get it out of my head, and it's not in a good way, in a very bad way, sometimes it pisses me off, we were having a good time, I was getting used to having him around, and he had to go and drop that on me, just like that, ruining everything, now I can't even.... I can't even have..... I clenched my jaw, fuck Luke.

I clenched my hands into a fist as I hit one of the little figurines in my office, it fell to the floor with a huge clattering sound, shattering into pieces, I looked at it and tried to calm my racing heart.
This is why I'm not a relationship person, it's unnerving, it's consuming, it makes you lose your mind, once feelings starts getting involved, everything changes, and I can't deal with that kind of change, so I do my best to stay away from it, but Luke had to go spring it up like that, and then Stefano was trying to make me look bad for rejecting him, I had every right to, I don't want him like that, I can't force myself to.

"Wow" I heard someone voice from behind me, and when I turned, Matteo was standing in my doorway, staring at me and the broken figurine on the floor, I clenched my jaw and looked straight into his eyes "and here I thought Luke was the only one that had it bad for you" he muttered out strolling into my office, I clenched my jaw and growled out lowly..

"I don't have it bad for him, or anyone" I gritted out and he just gave me a pointed look, I sighed out, choosing to ignore him, he perched himself on my couch and spread his legs wide open "what are you doing here"? I asked and he just cocked his brows at me

"Seriously? You haven't seen me in days and I come here to check on you and that's the thanks I get"? He asked a mocking tone to his voice, I could tell he wasn't offended by my choice of words and my brash attitude.
I sat down on the chair, rubbing my hand down my face, ignoring him again, well not exactly ignoring him, it's hard to ignore someone like Matteo in a room.
"I'm not going to ask what's up with you, personally it's not my business and you know it, I'm here because my boyfriend apparently hasn't been himself in days, and as much as he tries to deny it, I know it's because of you" he started and I just looked at him clenching my jaw, hearing that Stefano has been a mess because of me, kind of made me feel like a dick, he didn't do anything to me, I just decided to vent on him that day.

"I know what's going on between you and Luke, and I'm not going to intervene, I don't care who you fuck, and who agrees to fuck you and whatever goes down in your life, but it's messing with Stefano and if it's messing with Stefano, then it's messing with me, so I need you to stop whatever malice you're keeping with Stefano, and make up" he muttered out, it didn't sound like a request, and he wasn't asking either.