Chaotically Organized Part 1

The End

November 4th, 2024

I could never understand why I couldn't let you go.
Pain after pain after pain.
Betrayal after betrayal after betrayal.
Wondering why I desperately clung to you like you were my life line.

Reading the text messages the day it was over and the day I moved.
Asking me to go see you, as if I had been the one to break your heart.
You flicked a switch in my soul that allowed me closure.
So much horrible stuff had been done to me.

Losing me completely was the only time you wanted to cling back to me.
A slap in the face that made me fully see you as you are.
A man who would break my heart, yet stash his cologne in my bag.
A reminder, an action that showed me how selfish and monstrous you are.

Wanting to see if you could keep a leash on me.
Have me continue filling whatever part of you that I did.
Seeing if I would sit there while you 'fixed' yourself, as if you would ever do so.
Reminding me that I would never be the same after the traumas you put me through and tried to continue.

I realized I was worth so much more than what you had ever given me.
You helped me write the last sentence of our chapter.
The end.