A Poet of Deep Thought (1st Poetry Volume)

Nervous

Wrote on the 20th of March.
Pic to show I have wrote these.

Before you read this, this is all a made up one. I added such detail because ya know.. Boredom gets the best of us all. This coulda been a story. Geez.

           ~Enjoy~

I fiddle with my pencil trying to concentrate what to write next is what I contemplate. My thoughts are now jumbled, words are a blur. I feel the need to look over my shoulder

There he sits. There he waits. He looks over. His eyes flare a sparkle and wonder it takes. I look away, my guy was door flips. I think of more better words for true feelings but my heart beat trips.

I guess I do like him yet I'm so confused. So many times my relationships failed, I hope not used or abused. Maybe I should take  such chances and take my time. Learning to love again is never a crime.

If we start off as friends I guess that's okay. We may not last but I imagine this might fix me into a better way. My heart still at fast pace I began to write the not over again. I make it short and sweet to close heart of his I hope the message lands.

Done with the note, I try to conceal up my writings. So many emotions or fears I was still fighting. I pass the note, a blush rises on my face. Why does this always happen or take place?

He looks up with such a glare. It was hard not to get lost in his stare. My gut went to a rolling tide of a hurricane. I tried to keep together, keep sane.

He lifts the paper of the poorer out thought. My heart my gut my mind racing through a whole lot. Just a glance back for reassurance. He's writing.. What?! What is the accurance?!

For the moments u turned away I kept praying he wouldn't mis lead or misunderstand. I now regretted writing but then I felt a tap on my shoulder; a rather strong hand. A note of neater  writing passed my arm. I was in a mess insecure defiantly, and my gut swarmed.

Looking at the words understand and thanks, admittingly you are beautiful about gave me tears. I haven't heard those words so long like years. My heart melted just a little in the mess of it all from my chair I felt I was going to fall.

This is only a beginning. I still have unsure and insecure feelings. I will never forget this day, I'm now staring off dreamily. He spoke so so sweetly..

Ta da!
Hope u liked this narrative one.

~A.B.P.