One Direction Imagines

She Ain't You (LT)

i think I better let her go,
i can't you leave alone.
everytime that I'm with her,
all I want is you.
Want to leave but I'm afraid,
that you don't even feel the same.
Now I realize that she ain't you.

Your pov;
It's been two weeks. Two weeks of suffering, pain and regret. I never thought things would be like this. It's been two weeks since I caught my now ex-boyfriend, Louis, cheating on me. I've been cheated on in the past but I never thought in a million years, Louis would break my heart and do this. I've always been so insecure and this has made all my insecurities worse. Maybe I deserved this. Was I not skinny enough? Pretty enough? Smart enough? Did I not make him happy? All these thoughts ran through my mind as I lay on this bed. The bed I used to share with Louis countless nights. Everything reminded me of him. Everything. It's was so hard to even be here sometimes. This was my flat but Louis and I have had many days and nights that we spent together here. We did everything together. Maybe I was a distraction? Or a mistake? I was starting to go crazy. I couldn't do this anymore. I was numb. This was all my fault.

Louis' pov;
I messed up so bad. As I look at Amanda, she's nothing compared to (y/n). It's crazy how one little drunken mistake can turn into this. (Y/n) broke up with me and Amanda won't leave me alone. She was so annoying. All she did was nag me. I wanted (y/n) so bad. I don't want Amanda. I never did. The night (y/n) left me, a part of me left with her. I just want her back. This was all my fault.
"Amanda?"
"Yeah?" Her voice squealed throughout her apartment. It made me cringe.
"I can't do this anymore, I'm sorry" I said to her getting up and avoiding eye contact. I felt no remorse. I didn't love her at all. The girl that I loved was at her flat and I needed to get her back.
"What?! Why?! Is it because of that bitch (y/n)?" I stopped right in my tracks and turned around, with my teeth clenched, trying not to lose my cool. "What did you say?" "Oh you didn't hear me? She's. A. Bitch. You made the right choice when you slept with me". Now I was beyond angry. "(Y/n) is the best thing that's ever happened to me. The night with you was a huge mistake. I was drunk and out of mind. I don't love you. I've never loved you. I don't even like you. The girl that I love is probably at home, broken. I'm going to make it better. Goodbye Amanda." I walked out of her apartment and made my way to see (y/n), I need to make this right.

Your pov;

Another night was wasted staring at the wall in my living room. My mind was a mess. I barely have eaten anything since I left him. I felt so hopeless. So, vulnerable. So useless. I couldn't even cry anymore, all the tears were wasted the night I saw Louis in bed with a woman. That moment played over and over again. It didn't stop. The world started spinning, it would be best to just lay down. As I layed down, I pulled my legs up to my chest and just started shaking. My whole world is gone.

Louis' pov;
I arrived at her house and you could tell she was in the living room, her lamp was on. Her key to her flat was in my hand, she gave it to me when we started dating. What if she didn't want to see me? I wasn't going to let that scare me off. She can kick and scream but that'll never change my feelings for that woman. She was mine. I want to be with her, I made a mistake. I opened the door and looked around. I was about to step into the living room but before I could, I heard glass shatter under my foot. I looked down, and there was our picture from our one year anniversary, shattered in the picture frame. I picked it up, trying not to get cut by glass and looked at it. We were so happy. The way her eyes sparkled, the way she smiled, it was all so perfect. I never thought that we'd be like this now. We're like strangers. I put the picture down gently, and walked into the living room.
There she was. Laying down, curled up into a ball and her body was trembling. All of the pictures of us that were on the wall were shattered all around the room. She looked so small. She looked so fragile. My heart broke. I did this to her, I broke the woman I love. I couldn't even breathe properly. I did this. "(Y/n)?" My voice cracked as I tried to get her attention. She started shaking more than she was. "STOP IT, I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE. WHY CAN'T I STOP HEARING HIS VOICE?!" she screamed. she burst into tears and brought her head towards her knees and rocked herself back and forward. I felt horrible. She thought she was dreaming. I destroyed her so much, that she thinks that hearing me will only be a dream..

Your pov;

This wasn't real. I wasn't hearing him. This was all a dream. I'm going crazy. My body was shaking as I sobbed frantically. "Love, it's me," I used all my strength to get up from the couch and look to the entrance of the living room. Louis was standing there. Tears streaming down his face as he looked at you with so much worry, pain, regret and self hate. He couldn't be real. Now  I knew I was going crazy. This was all an illusion. "It's not you. This is not real. I'm dreaming, right? You slept with another woman, you chose her over me. I'm not good enough. You chose to sleep with her.. You're not here."

Louis' pov;
"...you're not here." I couldn't believe what she was saying. She thought I chose Amanda over her? She thinks she's not good enough? She thinks I don't love her? One mistake ruined her. I slowly made my way closer to her, but she kept on moving away from me. "Please," I pleaded holding out my hand towards her. "It's me. It's Louis. It's me, love." By now I was sobbing. "I made a huge huge huge mistake. I was drunk. I know that doesn't excuse my behaviour but I was out of my mind. I wasn't thinking clearly. The girl that I slept with, her name was Amanda. She means nothing to me. I don't feel anything towards her. Absolutely nothing. I'm in love with you. You're my life, not Amanda. I love you. Fuck, I'm so sorry for hurting you love. That was the last thing I ever wanted to do. Please forgive me." I was about a couple inches from her. She pushed herself up and walked towards me, her legs trembling a little. Her hands went to my face and looked into my eyes. "It really is you" she said while trying to hold in her tears. My thumb wiped away her tears as she stared into my eyes. I nodded, "I'm so sorry. Forgive me. Let's start over. I'll never ever even pick up a drink again. I will never cheat on you. I love you. I've learned my lesson baby. I can't live without you. I'm not going to ruin everything ever again. I love love love love you. I adore you (y/n). She grabbed my other cheek and pulled me close to her. "One more chance Tomlinson, that's it. I love you too, without you, I have no purpose. You're my everything and I forgive you.   Her lips attached onto mine and nothing has ever been so perfect. We were one again. She was all mine. I would never screw this up again. I'll spend the rest of my life trying to make this up to her. We spent the rest of night holding each other. This was what I wanted forever.