I'm Better Off Dead, Right? (MDE Fan Fic)

Getting Over It

~Alex's POV~

It was a message from an officer.

Officer: Your mom...well she has died in a tragic car accident. I'm very sorry

I read it over and over. This can't be real. Oh god..no why. Fuck. I close my door and lock it wanting to be alone.

I sit against the frame of my bed while sitting on the floor. I pull my knees up to my chest and cover my face and let the silent sobs and tears escape.

I hear a knock on my door and they try on the knob and it opens. I must've not actually locked the door. Shit. Johnnie walks in. I was in tears on the floor. I look so pathetic right now.

"Alex....what's wrong?" he asks. I hand him my phone with the text on the screen and as he reads it I cover my face once again.

"Alex...I'm so sorry," he says sitting next to me.

"It's f-fine," I hiccup. He puts an arm around me and pulls me to him.

I sat there crying like a moron. I wipe away my tears and try to get my act together. I take a deep breath.

"I'm really sorry for your loss, Alex," he says to me.

"It's ok.....I'll be fine," I say.

"Not for a long time...I know how it feels and I'm still not over it," he says. I'll be fine...I'll be ok...I'd be fine....or better off dead.

"I will be," I say. He stand up as do I. I sit back on my bed and he walks out.

I probably won't be fine. I sigh. My mom was dead. I can't comprehend this.

Later that day Johnnie appears in my doorway.

"So I'm guessing we're not going trick or treating?" he says leaning against the door frame.

"No...it's fine...we can go...." I say.

"You sure?" I nod.

"Alright...let's leaver around 6," he says leaving. That gives me an hour. I get up and close the door. I begin looking through my closet. I choose some black dress that stops at my knees. It has spaghetti straps and I had cat ears and a cat tail for some reason. I slip on the dress. First time in years. I strap on the tail and put on my ears. I grab my black toms and slip those on. I head into my bathroom.

I grab my liquid eyeliner and draw on my whiskers and my nose. I grieve over my mom and be depressed later. I take a deep breath and step out of the bathroom. I had done some other makeup and my hair and it was now time to go. Johnnie knocks on my door and I open it. He was wearing his batman onesie.

"You look cute," he says and I smile.

"Thanks," I step out of my room. We head outside. I had a bag with "trick or treat' written on it in orange. Johnnie had a Jack Skellington one.

We hit up a lot of houses before heading home. It started raining, great. It ruins my hair and makeup and I start laughing.

"Yeah thanks sky for letting this rain down upon us," I say laughing as we walk home.

"You look like some dead zombie or something," Johnnie says and we laugh.

We arrive back and I go back into my room and change into my comfy pj's. Now I have to move into an apartment. I would never afford this house on my own.

I turn on my tv and start watching a movie and Johnnie jumps on my bed next to me and sits down.

"Hi," I say pausing Netflix.

"Hey. So what exactly are you going to do about the house?" he asks. I shrug.

"I guess I'll just find an apartment or something," I say.

"Well this sucks....I wanna stay to help you move," he says and I nod.

"Alright...you can," I say.

(A/N When should I end this book? :3 What chapter should I cut it loose? We are at 22 parts atm so let me know where I should probably end it. I will be working on a comedy book next so yeah <3)