Christ Illumination

Chapter: 39 "Hug, Confession and Kisses"

"I miss you..." Malambing na bulong niya sa tenga ko na siyang nagpataas sa mga balahibo ko at nagpatibok ng sobrang bilis sa dibdib ko.

Mula sa likuran ko ay niyakap niya ako ng sobrang higpit. Ipinatong rin niya ang ulo niya sa kanang balikat ko kaya naman ramdam na ramdam ko ang mainit niyang hininga at kitang-kita ko sa salamin ang gwapo niyang mukha na nakatitig sa akin.

Tahimik lang kaming dalawa. Walang may gustong magsalita. Siguro pareho naming ine-enjoy ang bawat segundo sa piling ng isa't isa.

"I have a confession to make." Bigla sabi niya pero nanatili pa rin siyang nakapikit.

"What is it?" Curious na tanong ko.

"You're changing me."

"Huh?" Naguguluhang tanong ko ko.

"Because of you, I'm slowly becoming a stranger on my own identity."

"I can't get you."

He sigh first.

"Since the day I've met you inside that church I already experience sleepless night. You even ruin my normal heart beat. And now..." He paused for a moment and take a sight of me. "You..."

"What?"

"You've push me to break my promised with Maria."

"What promise?" Tanong ko pa ulit kasi hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa rin siya ma-gets.

"I once promised to her tomb that she is the only girl I will love for the rest of my life but now... I think I'm already falling to you real hard." He said while looking straight into my eyes.

I don't know how to react on everything that he said. Parang bigla ata akong nabingi dahil sa mga sinabi niya at tanging ang malakas na tibok lang ng dibdib ko ang naririnig ko.

"P--pwedeng pakiulit?" Nauutal na pakiusap ko sa kanya habang nakatulala ako.

He slightly smile at me then he cup my face and look straight on my eyes again.

"I love you Sandy." He said before he kiss my lips.

It took me awhile before I overcome my shock. For Pete's sake, this is my first kiss! I don't know how to kiss a guy on the lips but I tried my best to respond. Ipinikit ko na lang ang mga mata ko at ninamnam ang matatamis niyang labi pero nagulat ako noong naramdaman kong may malambot sa likod ko kaya napilitan akong imulat ang mga mata ko and guess what? Nakahiga na pala ako sa kama at nasa ibabaw ko siya.

"Paanong---"

"I have a powers remember?" He cut to my sentence.

"I almost forgot." Halos pabulong na sabi ko.

"I've already confessed to you. Wouldn't you say anything?"

I smiled at him first.

"I love you too." I said then this time I'm the one who grabbed his head and kiss him on the lips.

Naramdaman kong unti-unti nang lumalalim ang halikan namin at dahan-dahan na ring gumagapang ang mga kamay niya sa katawan ko pero hinayaan ko lang siya.

"There's no turning back after the count of three so stop me until I can." He whispered between our kisses.

"Huh?"

"One..." He started counting before he kiss me again.

After several seconds before we gasp our breath. His staring at me and I can read the passion on his eyes.

"Two..." He continue counting while slowly kissing my ears down to my neck.

"Uhhh..." I moaned because of the sensation that he brought to my body.

"Shit. You're driving me crazy Sandy." He whispered in a husky voice while holding the tie of my robe.

"Thr---"

"Stop!" Sigaw ko noong akmang aalisin na niya ang tali nitong suot kong robe.

I'm not wearing anything inside this robe and I think I'm not yet ready for what he want.

"As I expected." Nanghihinang sabi niya bago umayos ng upo dito sa tabi ng kama ko tapos tinakpan niya ako nang kumot.

Ilang sandali na naman kaming nabalot ng katahimikan. Everything seems so fast and unreliable to me. It's like once a upon a time I've met a myterious guy who always saves me. I've fell in love to him and he fell to me too then all of a sudden we almost make love?!

Oh my gosh! Mali ito! Number one rule sa bahay namin ang no-to-sex-before-marriage.

"Sorry..." Hinging paumanhin ko sa kanya kasi alam kong nabitin siya well ako rin naman mabuti na lang talaga at natauhan ako bago pa man may mangyari.

"No need to be sorry. I love you and I respect your decision." Sagot niya pero sa malayo siya nakatingin at hindi sa akin.

"I..." Huminga muna ako nang malalim. "I will only offer my virginity to my husband." Naluluhang paliwanag ko.

Ano ba namang luha ito? Wrong timing!

"Don't cry, Sandy. I don't wanna see you crying." He said while slowly wiping my tears.

"Do you hate me?"

"I will never hate you." Then he kissed my forehead.

"Are you going to sleep here?"

"No. Baka hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili ko kapag nag-stay pa ako dito. I'll go ahead." Tapos tumayo na siya at inayos ang nagusot niyang damit.

"When are we going to see each other?" Nalulungkot na tanong ko habang umuupo ako dito sa kama.

"Soon." He answered before he disappear.

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Masarap ang naging tulog ko kagabi pero maaga akong naalimpungatan dahil sa malakas na tunog nitong cellphone ko.

"Hello?" I sleepily asked on the other phone.

"It's me, Mr. Marquez."

"Mr. Marquez, napatawag po kayo?" Tanong ko habang tinitignan ko ang oras sa side table and it said there that it's only five o'clock in the morning.

"You need to come here. The company needs you."

"But Mr. Marquez, matagal na pong tapos ang kontrata ko kina Mommy. I'm not the CEO anymore."

"I know. Pero baka nalilimutan mo na katatapos lang masangkot sa kahihiyan ng Lolo mo kaya pati ang kompanya ay apektado. Ikaw na lang ang nakikita kong tanging solusyon para maisalba ang Javier Group of Company."

Napabuntong hinga muna ako.

"Sige po Mr. Marquez. Wait me there before six o'clock." Sagot ko bago ibinaba ang tawag.

Mabilis akong pumasok sa bathroom para maligo tapos nagbihis ako ng damit pang opisina ko.

"Ate, papasok ka sa office?" Tanong sa akin ni Dolly mula sa kusina.

(A/n: Actually sa October 11 ko pa sana ipo-post ang chapter 38 at 39 kasabay ng chapter 40 kaso aksidente kong napindot ang publish button ng chapter 39 kanina pero in-unpublish ko rin agad. Pero nagulat ako dahil kahit 2 minutes pa lang siyang naka-post ay ay dumagsa na agad ang mga message na natatanggap ko at sinasabing kinilig at nabitin sila sa chapter 39 kaya naman naisipan kong ipublish na ito ngayon kasi nabasa na rin naman ng iba. But guys, pakaabangan ninyo ang chapter 40 sa October 11 kasi kasabay noon ang big announcement ko tungkol sa story na ito.)