Bite//Tronnor

C H A P T E R-T W E L V E

T R O Y E

It has been a month now. A month.

I haven't spoken with Connor since he left. I've been putting off things. Like making videos, and music.

People have noticed, my fans along with friends and my family.

What happened? Did you quit YouTube?
Are you working on a secret project?
Will you come back soon?

People were questioning where I was. I tried my best to avoid social media, but it's pretty hard when it your job.

Zoe and Alfie left in the same week Connor did. I did my best to seem happy in front of them.

Internally, on the other hand, I was questioning myself. Why did it have to be him? Why Connor? And why was I so stupid as to ignore him on the day he left. He probably left because of me. Of course he did. Why would he stay?

My mum came into my room twice a day, checking to bring me food and asking me to go out and do something, anything. I didn't say anything. Actually, I don't think I've spoken to anyone in a month beside when I said good bye to Alfie and Zoe.

"Please, Troye. Anything hurts less than the quiet. Talk to me, sweetie." She said this today, when she brought in my breakfast.

Unlike the last time I shut everyone out, I was smart enough to eat the food given to me. I didn't want to get any more skinny than I already was. Gaining back the weight proved to be hard.

I wondered about what Connor is doing. I heard he was working on a new project from somewhere, can't remember where from. Maybe he did leave for a good reason.

"Troye? Do you want to film another collab with me?" Tyde stood at my door awkwardly.

I didn't know if I should say anything. So I just waited for him to leave. He didn't.

"Troye? You know you'll have to get out of bed eventually.." I still didn't say anything, just blankly stared at my younger brother.

"Come on, everyone is worried about you. Mum is thinking about sending you to see a therapist. We're scared, Troye." While talking, he made his way into my bedroom and now stood at the foot of my bed. I knew he wouldn't leave without me saying at least something.

"A video about what?" He looked surprised when I spoke up. My voice was a bit raspy from not speaking for a month.

"Anything. Anything you want."

After a discussion of what the video would be of, we now sat in Tydes room , ready to film. He had me change before, saying it was the first time in a month the viewers would be seeing me. I had to look nice.

He picked out a white v-neck shirt and a denim jean jacket along with a pair of faded skinny jeans for me to wear. I tried fixing up my hair, but after failing multiple times, I just let it fall on to my fore head. Tyde gave me a thumbs up and a smile before hitting the record button.

We filmed a Q and A, Tyde tweeted the fans to ask questions, and when people found out I would be in it, they freaked out. Apparently half of my fandom were convinced that I had died, from having avoided social media for a little over a month.

The questions asked were simple. Some to Tyde, but most directed to me. Some asked where I had 'disappeared' to. I said I took a short 'break' from YouTube, but I'm back now so no one needed to worry.

Tyde and I now sat in his room in silence after finishing the video. He seemed nervous, which was odd because he was fine a minute ago.

"Troye?"

"Yeah?"

"What happen? With Tyler, then after Connor left?" He looked scared. As if he wanted to know the answer to his question, but at the same time he didn't. (Does this make any sense??)

I didn't know what to say. Before the incident with Tyler, I had told Tyde everything. I trusted him. But now I didn't know if I should tell him.

"I'm sorry, I just want to know what they did to hurt you. If you don't want to tel-"

"Tyler. Tyler hurt me. Not Connor. I.. I think I hurt Connor."

Tyde looked confused. Then he said," What did Tyler do to you?"

I didn't know if  I should tell him. I didn't want his him to think Tyler is a bad person. He just made a bad decision.

"He cheated on me." I avoided looking at him.

"Oh."

"Yeah." No one said anything for a while.

"But what about Connor? What did he do?"Tyde asked me.

"No, its what I did.. Remember the day before he left? When you found us outside-"

"Sucking face?" Tyde smirked.

"..yes..anyways, after we left to sleep. And in the morning, he wanted to talk about it. I said I regreted it, that it was a mistake."

"But did you really?" He asked.

"No. In fact I loved it. But the thought that I may even like him.. scares me. He left after that. I didn't say a proper good-bye. We haven't talked since."

"God, Troye..." He shook his head," you really fucked up."

"I know."

"Go to him." He said.

"What?"

"Go to him, apologize and tell him what you just told me. That you might like him."

"But-but I can't just go. What if he doesn't want to see me?"

"Of course he will! Besides, you have to fix this." I thought a bout this as he told me to leave the room so he could edit the video.
Maybe I should go?

I can't believe I'm doing this.

I now sat on a plane that was in the process of taking off. To LA. My mum had loved the idea of me getting out and going somewhere. My parents had bought me a ticket to the next flight to LA. And here I was.

I can't believe I'm doing this.

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HAI!

ANOTHER UPDATE?! Yep.
Okay, so here is an 'okay' length chapter. Oohh Troye is going tO LA. TO TALK WITH CON??

Yeah.

Is this to fast?? Am I rushing this?? Oh well.

And my updating schedule is so out of place....I need to get things straight soon.

Anyways, HOW ARE YOU GUYS. YOUR ALL SO NICE, AND FUNNY WHEN YOU COMMENT. IT MOTIVATES ME TO WRITE MORE. I LOVE YOU ALL.

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