I drown
I drown in the beauty of your love
Your love that is not eternal
Your love that is unspoken in words or in hugs
But the bliss of the moment transcends the joys of anything I have been lead to believe
But the bliss of the moment is enough to make my heart explode with excitement and hope
That I do not care that
I drown
I drown
In the pain that is Us
In the pain that we are not eternal
That your back is what I'm gazing at
But I wish to be by your side
And not just watch over you stagnantly
I drown
In a stream of silent, invisible tears
In a pool of what ifs and do's and don'ts
I drown in the darkness of not being able to see you again
But the light from your bedside lamp that is reflected on your eyes, and glasses frame, and hair
Is enough to pull me out of my reverie
Smiling as if time is staying still
As if time is stopping instead of the seconds ticking away
I drown myself in silly jokes and pleasant laughter and music you chose
While paradoxically striding through the quicksand of duties and oaths and promises
Of hopes and dreams and aspirations that I've known longer than your love
I drowned
And I rise
I drown
I rise
