Even if I'm not right there beside you
I still think of you
Often
They say don't fall in love with guys
who brings you to museums
who take you on road trips
who treat you to coffee shops
because it will break you
when they leave
and it becomes oh so painful when you try to erase their memories
I fell in love with a guy
that folded me paper cats and paper cranes
that made and gave me a ring for Christmas
that lent me his favorite sweaters
that watched Princess Mononoke and Secret World of Arrietty
and watched the stars with me
I can pick a different museum to visit
I can travel to strange, breath-taking destinations different than anything I've ever seen
I can choose a different coffee scent, use a different mug, find a new preference
But tell me
How do you forget stars
How does one run away
from the skies
How can I abandon music
How do I discard warmth
How do I make a gift fade, when there will be others that reminds me of it
How do I give up the one origami that my father taught me to fold
How?
It still surprises me
how easily people slip back into routine
I had one before you
and I'll return to one
without you
It will hurt in the beginning, and I may occasionally cry my eyes and heart out over you, but over time the pain fades, and life will go on without you. I miss you, and I will miss you, but just like noob soldiers marching in lines, I'll adjust to the pace. Life doesn't end with our separation, neither mine, nor yours.
And I guess ultimately, that's what I'm afraid of.
That is what I find hard
to accept
Don't let me go
Onegai
Suki yo
