Regrets and Unsent Messages

Letter

You.

You ruined my life.

But you also made me appreciate it. You helped me forget the one who hit me and kept me locked it his corner. Even if you pushed me over the edge in the end.

You gave me flowers and made me laugh.

Even if they were poisonous and I was at the wrong end of your joke.

You.

You saved me, and turned me into something new. You made me a lady, when I was just an it. A maybe. A girl. Sometimes I resent you for making me what you wanted, and not what I was supposed to grow into. But it's ok. People like me now.

Darling, you left me when I was too scared, too naive to understand those words you craved. She gave you the phrase you always wanted, the drug I could never give you. She gave you the high I was incapable of.

But you won't ever hear them from me.

Oh how I loved you, the one who would would only take and leave. Those three little words you were so desperate to hear, but I never told you, are now past tense.

Oh, how I loved you.

Oh, how I loved you so.