STUPID LOVE

Chapter 4

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As the moon light touch my skin, I feel afraid. I'm afraid he will leave me. I'm afraid of being alone.

We're walking at the street under the night sky, only stars and moon serves as our light. There's no streetlight on our path so, its somehow dark.

"Babe, don't be scared. I'm right here, I'll protect you." He said then gently intertwined our hands.

I feel safe..

I smiled at him for what he said. He's my night in shining armor. I'm very happy I have him in my life. Though we're just teenager I really believe he's my prince. The one and only.

Nang makarating kami sa tapat ng bahay namin, he immediately hug me tight.

I don't know why, but I can feel that he wants to tell me something. Kanina pa kasi siya clingy na clingy saken, well, nagdate kami ngayon.

"Babe.."

"H-hmm?" I can't help my voice not to tremble. Why am I stuttering?

Why I feel that he will say something that will makes me in pain? Why I feel that he will hurt me?

"I just want to tell you something.. but always remember I'm always be your night in shining armor, okay?" He said and I just nodded.

Bakit ba napakamasokista ko? Alam ko na kung ano ang sasabihin niya. Alam ko na.. pero gusto ko pa ring makinig mismo sa bibig niya.

"W-what is it, b-babe?"

Yeah, I'm such a masochist. Alam ko namang darating din ang araw na 'to. Pero hindi ko inaasahan na ang bilis naman..

"Grace.."

Every breathe that I exhale is deep just like a trench. Every seconds past is so heavy.

I look straight on his eyes, and I can see that its full of sadness, bleakness that I don't see before.

Hindi ko namalayan na tulo na pala ng tulo ang luha ko. Nag-uunahan sila na parang may karera na nagaganap.

"Grace, let's break up."

When he said that, its like my world stop for awhile then, now a ruined place. Its like my heart is broken into tiny pieces. I feel so helpless..

"No.. n-no.." I said while shaking my head as a "no".

Nakatungo lamang siya at nakikita ko na naiyak na din siya. Parang kanina lang ang saya-saya namin, tapos ngayon..

"P-please dont leave me.. p-please.."

Sa wakas tumunghay na din siya at hindi katulad kanina na malungkot ang mga mata nito.

All I see now is a pity.. Naaawa siya saken dahil sa itsura ko ngayon. What's with him? He said he loves me..

"Please Leo.. don't leave me.."

"You know Zhena, I will be straight to the point. I don't love you, I didn't. Lahat ng pinakita ko sayo, all of it is just a show. Its just a bet. Sorry.."

Gaano kasakit ang sabihin niya iyon? Sobra sobra. Mali, mas higit pa sa sobra.. Akala ko iba siya sa mga lalaki na dumating sa buhay ko. But I was wrong, he's just like them. Manggagamit lang sila, pare-parehas lang sila na mahilig manakit ng damdamin.

"You're asshole.. how can you? Leonell I love you so much, but then, you, on the other hand didn't feel the same. I thought you love me, because you said it. You show it." I said to him, while my tears are flowing like a river. But I always immediately wipe it.