The Heart of a Girl [My Poetry]

Plastic Smile

I hide my feelings from others
Not wanting to hurt another
My mind is stealing my sanity
For us to be together

I cry often silently
It is nothing to be taken lightly

I've bottled up these feelings
Bubbling inside
I've hidden these tears
Raining down inside

A plastic smile in their sight
A fake laugh given without might
All there to lie and say
I'm alright,

Two years ago was when it started
And now I feel retarded
Soon it happened
And now I'm stranded

I cry often of this subject
Feeling like the reject

They don't know how they've hurt me
They don't know how this impacts me
And yet, I won't let them see

A plastic smile in their sight
A fake laugh given without might
All there to lie and say
I'm alright,

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sorry, this is kinda depressing but
this is my life most days. And every now and then I have these days were all my pain comes back and I can't hold it in. I've been doing that for far too long now. Poetry, as I found, is a way for me to cope with my insecurities and hurt.

I'm not going to lie, a lot of people have hurt me, and I've always put on a fake smile and said it didn't bother me much.. Big mistake on my part I guess.

But anyway, this wasn't supposed to make anyone feel bad or anything, I just needed to write out my feelings.

*smiles sadly* bye, bye! Hope you'll continue reading.