a new beginning

life or death

i said nothing for some reason i felt safe as much as i wanted to tell him why i was crying i couldn't get the words out then i looked away i couldn't bare to have him see me at my weakest then he spoke i could tell he kinda felt sorry for me "ok you don't have to tell me, but i have a trick to stop you from feeling if your interested" i thought for a minute then glanced at his direction "ok so for example if you lost someone, instead of being all sad and depressed all the time use their lost as a motivator for you to do something better for their sake. basically, change your negative feelings into ways of motivating yourself to help you achieve things, but that's just me it may not work for other people, but it's worth a try." i thought to myself."That could help as my mother always told me to never look back to yesterday. I look forward to tomorrow." they're both right. i can't keep blaming myself. i guess i could hope again. i couldn't help but smile at that little thought. "Well, im going to go and explore the city a bit. See ya later," and just like that, he was gone. i watched him run out of the house. There was something about that boy that i couldn't help but be curious about. i got up and jumped down back inside and walked back into the living room and sat down holding my head in my hands thinking back to what he said "maybe he's right i cant keep doing this to myself....i guess its time i start over...." then i heard a crash in one of the room's then smoke started to spreed everywhere.something inside was telling me to get out of there and run but my legs started to walk in the direction of where the source of the smoke was coming from then i stopped. i seen what looked like Kishin. it stood up and looked at me and started to come towards me. i started to back up, and i tripped and fell back. i had a bunch of thoughts in my head, but one stood out from the rest"its time to nut up or shut up." My choice was made to survive. i found the closest object and started to fight. it was strong but i was not going to lose i fought with all i had but it got me down and pinned me down i struggled and couldn't get free i whispered to myself"someone please....help me" then i blacked out

darkness....

that's all i seem to know...

it's dark....

it's cold.....

and im the reason for that is because im afraid....

"yuki...." Who's that... i know that voice, but who is it? If wonder..."yuki, wake up." they sound concerned... "we need to get her to the infirmary or she'll die" another voice i seem to know i cant put a finger on it...wait that's kid and the other must be...liam...no cant be why would he care... then what seemed like forever. i finally started to see my surroundings. i was in and out of conciseness for a while but came to...

i looked at my side, and liam was by my side asleep. i blushed, i thought/screamed in my head. "Why is he sleeping in the same room as me, and where am i...*looks around* Oh the infirmary, what happened...." *thinks back* "oh ya" i noticed he started to wake up and i pretended to be still asleep and i could hear that he was beginning to walk to the bathroom and then i heard the door open and shut i opened my eyes again and once again. i was beginning to be lost in my thoughts. i felt warmth on my hand i looked and seen liam holding my hand looking at me....smiling *thinking inside her head* "why is he smiling at me like that...to think about it he's kinda cute when he's smiling...wait no stop it bad yuki you cant like him you mustn't like him.. should i.... no ... Do i say something?" i faintly smiled. we both spoke at the same time "hello...im sorry i didn't mean to..." *thinking to herself again* "This is embarrassing.... im babbling trying to talk to him. "I looked at my hands, trying to stop myself from saying something stupid....

*inside my head, my head again*

"What am i going to do now? i keep freezing up when i try to talk to him.... why is this happening to me? i never do this..."

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end of chapter, and if you have an idea for a name for a chap, please comment

-yuki