My Unexpected Light

Letting Go

Scarlett's POV

I dialed his number and waited and just like that he answered chirping my name but I stopped him,

"Chase I hope you're content with what you have," I released a shaky breath, "have a great life." I said calmly, "oh and by the way I hate you," I said quickly and hung up and threw the phone on the floor like it got infected with the plague.

Those words were so unfamiliar with me. Hate. I slumped down on my bed covering myself with my knees and trying to be as small as possible.

Lets face it I didn't-couldn't hate Chase I was just upset and angry with him. I felt queasy and sick at the thought of what I'm doing to him but he has to know he'd hurt me.

I was used to betrayal I was betrayed way too much that I built a wall for protection. The only people I would open up were with my parents, Lizzie and Alex before Chase. I never befriended anyone other than them.

T h u m p - D u m p . My heartbeat went.

But I did talk to other people as a student to another but friends no. But when I met Chase I knew he was different, I had this strong feeling to get to know him better and I also knew right then and there I would get my heart broken.

But even so I took a leap of faith and gave him a chance to get to know me as I got to know him, again and again, my mind told me he was just trouble but still I gave him the chance.

And now this, I prepared myself for this scenario but didn't work, the pain I have never felt thi-

Thump Budump. Thump Bu--dump.

I took a breath to control my unregulated heartbeat.

Thump Bu--- Budump--- Thump

I pressed my chest with my hand easing the pain of breathing but it wasn't working. I was starting to panic and soon I was hyperventilating.

I sit up to gasp for air, my hands gripping the sheets as tears fall down my cheeks. I looked around to look for my phone unfortunately it was on the floor steps away from me.

Steps that needed my whole body to move. I tried to stand up but the rushing blood and the sudden stops and race of my heart let me fall down headfirst.

Thud.

A blacked out for a few minutes I opened my eyes to be greeted with piercing lights I groaned and pushed myself up with my shoulders and searched for my phone I found it and started to crawl to my phone. I tried my best to stop crying because I needed more of my strength to move but I was scared.

Thu-- mp-- Bu--dum--mum

I stretched my hand out. Just a few more. I pushed my feet as I shove myself forward, Just a little.

Gotcha, I immediately pressed my speed dial. OhShit.

I realized who it would be but it was too late he answered. "Scar I can explain," he's sweet voice pleaded I could barely comprehend what he was saying though but I felt a little relieved that he would still answer after I said those things.

My chest throbbed as the blood streamed in and out of my heart, I was wheezing trying to catch my breath but breathing was a challenge. Each breath was a whirlwind of pain but similarly gave relief.

I lied down on my back and tried to find comfort and stared at the ceiling as it slowly blurred. I could hear voices in the background somebody screaming out "vanilla ice cream?" What the hell?! I tried to smile but I could only do it inside.