It Makes The Pain Go Away [Kellic]

~Ch 11~

Hurting. Darkness. Pain. That's all I knew right now. What was happening to me? I couldn't see, I couldn't open my eyes, I couldn't even speak.

Am I alive? or dead? 

Flashes of white dashed across my  eyelids. What is that? Am I only dreaming? 

Then I was being shook, like someone was trying to get me to awake. I groaned in protest, not even feeling like I was currently in my body. It felt like I was just slipping away from the reality I had grown to know and hate.

"He's showing signs!" someone yelled. It sounded like they were so far away, but somehow I just knew that they were near me.

"GET THE IV!" Someone else yelled, but i didn't recognize the voice. Who was yelling at me and why? Am I.... dying? 

Then it hit me. I remembered everything that happened..... what I did. 

"Kellin?" another voice called to me. No. I was being brought back.

I felt myself getting sucked back into reality. But, I didn't want that, I didn't want to fail again.

It was too late. My eyelids opened and there I was in a white room with needles in my arms and doctors all around me. Tears escaped my eyes when I realized I was still stuck here, not even just stuck in my own home, but here in this fucking institution.

"You're going to be ok, don't cry," one of the female doctors spoke.

"Fuck.... you!" I screamed as loud as I could, "That's.... not what I want." Only a whisper came out. I thrashed around trying anything to escape so I could finish myself off. I ripped at the IVs and smacked at anyone who tried to get in my way.

"Get him!" they ran after me as I ran down the halls, passing all the peoples rooms. No doubt they could hear and see everything.

Someone jumped out to me and grabbed my ankle causing me to tumble to the floor. They stuck a big needle in my leg, but I still fought as hard as I could. I got back up and kept running. I felt super dizzy. 

"Wha... What is this," I mumbled, stumbling over my own feet and falling to the floor. I couldn't move anymore.

"Goodnight." I heard a whisper, then I was back into my dark space.

~

"Just stop fighting," the counselor said to me, "You're only restricting yourself even more." 

"I just want my locket....." I don't know why I said that, but I really did want it back. When I noticed it was gone, I didn't know what to do.

*FLASHBACK*

My first day in the institution and I already felt myself hating it more and more. I was currently sitting at a table with my room mate Alex and he talked to me about his cat, Mr. Whiskers. 

"He's so fluffy and I felt like he was the only one that could understand me, you know?"

I nodded my head. I absentmindedly reached for the golden chain that always hung around my neck when I realized it wasn't there. I frantically grasped at my neck, but it still wasn't there.

"Hey, are you alright?" Alex looked at me curiously.

"No... it's... it's gone!" I got out of my chair and ran to my room, not even bothering to check with the security.

"Where is it...." I mumbled to myself. I looked on the bed, lifting the sheets up violently. I tore the entire room apart desperately looking for it, but I just couldn't find it. I thought that maybe I had left it behind, but I knew I didn't. I always had it.

I lied down on the bed exhausted, holding back the tears.

*PRESENT*

"Well..... that locket is a danger to your health, so we can't give it back to you," the man spoke.

"It's a danger to my health if you don't give it back," I snapped.

"I'll see what we can do," he picked up the phone and began speaking to someone.

"Yea... it's Austin, um I was wondering if you had a locket that's from one of the patients? Kellin Quinn..... ok good. well I want to request that he be able to have it..... I know, I know. If we don't let him have it, he'll probably throw another fit. Ok thanks," he hung up and smiled at me.

"Good news, you can have it. You're welcome." he typed something into the computer and turned to me.

"You may go, it'll be on your bed when you go in there."

I ran to my room and flung the door open and saw the familiar gold color on my pillow.

"Thank god...." I  walked over to the bed and picked up the chain, cradling it in my hands. I opened the locket and saw the picture of my parents in the doors. 

"I miss you guys....." I put the locket around my neck, right where it belongs.

"Uh hey...," Alex looked through the door way, "You've been gone awhile, how have you been?"

"Horrible, but better now," I touched the locket through my shirt, "Why are there three beds in here now?"

"You don't remember? Vic is sharing," He gave me a sad smile.

Shit. I completely forgot that he was even here.

"Oh.... right," I lied back on the bed and sighed, "Why is he here...."

"I'm not sure, but the past couple days he's been pretty quiet, like, he only talks if he needs something." 

"Where is he?" I looked around the room, only seeing his things neatly tucked under the bed.

"Cafeteria probably. Ever since you disappeared, he kinda gives off a weird vibe, not sure what it is."

"Ok... I'm going to go find him." I got up and walked toward the cafeteria with Alex close behind.

Did I really want to see him after what he said to me? Did he even want to see me? Now that is probably a no, but I have to see him, it's important that I try to understand what he's feeling, just like what he did for me.