Sugar & Spice

A Little Spice

I looked out the window watching as buildings went by. We were going to New York to film Before We Go. We were going to the airport. Let's just say that the whole car ride was silent. We haven't said a word to each other for the past two days. I'm surprised he hasn't said anything. I looked over at him seeing that his eyes were on the road. I'm surprised he hasn't dropped me off at an Orphanage yet. I went back to window and stared at the rain falling. I crossed my arms over my chest and didn't even smile. We arrived at the airport. Ah the memories. I remember the day the three of us came to LA because Chris had wanted what's best for me. He's not my dad. He never will be. I got my bag from the car and the two of us entered the airport. Fans swarmed him and pushed me out of the way. I waited for a while until they left when his bodyguards came over and pulled them away. The two of us continued to walk toward our gate. I sat down and waited until the plane arrived. Chris stood by the window. Once the plan arrived we got on. I sat down at the window seat and quickly put on my headphones so I could block out Chris if he decides to break the record of silence.

This is the end
Hold your breath and count to ten
Feel the earth move and then
Hear my heart burst again

For this is the end
I've drowned and dreamt this moment
So overdue I owe them
Swept away, I'm stolen

Let the sky fall
When it crumbles
We will stand tall
Face it all together

Let the sky fall
When it crumbles
We will stand tall
Face it all together
At skyfall
At skyfall

Skyfall is where we start
A thousand miles and poles apart
Where worlds collide and days are dark
You may have my number, you can take my name
But you'll never have my heart

Let the sky fall
When it crumbles
We will stand tall
Face it all together

Let the sky fall
When it crumbles
We will stand tall
Face it all together
At skyfall

(Let the sky fall
When it crumbles
We will stand tall)

Where you go I go
What you see I see
I know I'd never be me
Without the security
Of your loving arms
Keeping me from harm
Put your hand in my hand
And we'll stand

Let the sky fall
When it crumbles
We will stand tall
Face it all together

Let the sky fall
When it crumbles
We will stand tall
Face it all together
At skyfall

Let the sky fall
We will stand tall
At Skyfall

I remember when me and mom would sing in the car. It was so much fun before dad died. But when he did it was like my life just broke into little pieces. I tried gluing the pieces back together but I'm so fragile that I hide it with a smile and attitude. Music and books are my only escape. I took out my sketch book and pencils and began to sketch a picture of a rose that was wilting. The sound of the pencil scraping against the paper was music to my ears. My sketch book was almost filled with random drawings. I didn't pay any attention.
"Hayley? Are you even listening to me?" asked Chris breaking me away from my thoughts. I took off my headphones.
"Hmm?" I asked.
"You're a good drawer" he said getting comfortable in his seat.
"Thanks" I mumbled as I put back on my headphones and began to sketch again. I didn't want to start a conversation. I was back to being myself and not that broken kid who just wanted to hug Chris. Now I'm back to being my Sugar & Spice self. Mostly Spice. I decided to add a little bit of color. When I say color I mean just coloring the background blue. After I was finished I took out my pen and in the bottom right hand corner I wrote the letter H in fancy cursive writing. I turned the page of the sketch book before sketching Sugar Skull. Chris watched me like a hawk as I sketched gently on the paper and soon I added bright colors. In the corner of my eye I watched as Chris admired my drawing. My mother use to put my drawings on the fridge. I didn't bother talking to Chris as much as I use to when mom died. We didn't have much to talk about and I didn't enjoy our talks. I've seen fans of his posting stuff about me wondering who I was and what am I to Chris. Even on Instagram! People posted pictures of me wondering why I was even near Chris! The answer is: I don't even know. I don't get why I have to live with an actor who use to date my mom. I just wanted to be with my mom and hug her. For once I missed my mother's hugs and kisses. I missed her smile and her laugh. I missed her cooking, which is pretty surprising. After I finished drawing I decided to see what other people have said on Instagram about me.
"Who is she?! I'm dying to know!"
"Why is she even with Chris? Are they dating?! No she's to young"
I decided enough was enough and I commented on the photo of me and Chris.
"Hi. My name is Hayley. I have to relation toward Chris what so ever. And the reason why I'm licking with him is personal. I'm tired of attention and people asking about who I am. So there. My name is Hayley and I'm 13 almost 14" I typed, then minutes later I got a bunch of notifications showing that I have new followers. How fun! I put my phone back down and took out my book that I just started reading.
Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children
I love horror books. I can't watch horror movies though. I'll scream my head off. But horror books are interesting to me. I have no clue why. I just enjoy them. I love ghost stories. I started to read knowing that this would be a long plane ride. Maybe I'll get the book finished. Maybe Chris would stop staring at me. I put down my book with a sigh and faced him.
"May I help you?" I said as if my words were laced with venom.
"Nope" he said popping the 'P'.
"Good" I mumbled before going back to my book. Sometimes I wonder what my mom saw in him. I wonder why she actually loved him. What if she only loved him for his money? I would never know because she was dead. Maybe if we didn't go to LA my mom would still be beside me. But no, we just had to go to LA because Chris thought it was better for me. Going to LA got my mom killed! I know I'm exaggerating things but really! He's not my dad. He doesn't need to make my decisions. I just wanted to leave. But he wouldn't be leaving me in New York by myself. Scott would be with me while Chris would he filming. What if my brother was still alive?! He'd probably be old enough to take me under his care but yet he's probably poor and lives under a bridge. I wonder if he's married and has kids? That means I'm a Aunt! Right? But what if he doesn't have kids and he's not married. It wouldn't surprise me.
I wonder if my life will ever be normal. Will I ever get married in the future? Will I ever have kids? Will I continue pursuing the one dream I've always wanted to come true. I've always wanted to be an Actress and a singer. I could play the piano and sing. The only person that heard me sing was my mom and dad. I love movies so much. My thoughts were like a storm in my brain. A thunder storm. I forgot where I left off in the book. I closed the book and went back to listening to music. I scrolled through my playlist until I found a song that my mom use to sing to me but she sang it in French that made me fall asleep.

This day is going to be perfect
The kind of day of which I've dreamed since I was small
Every pony will gather round, say I look lovely in my gown
What they don't know is that I have fooled them all.

This day was going to be perfect
The kind of day of which I've dreamed since I was small
But instead of having cake with all my friends to celebrate
My wedding bells they may not ring for me at all

I could care less about the dress
I won't partake in any cake
Vows well I'll be lying when I say
That through any kind of weather I'll want us to be together
The truth is I don't care for him at all
No I do not love the groom
In my heart there is no room
But I still want him to be all mine

We must escape before it's too late
Find a way to save the day
I hope I'll be lying if I say
I don't fear that I may lose him to one who wants to use him
Not care for love and cherish him each day
For I oh so love the groom
All my thoughts he does consume
Oh Shining Armor I'll be there very soon

Finally the moment has arrived

For me to be one lucky bride
Oh the wedding we won't make
He'll end up marrying a fake
Shining Armor will be
Mine! All mine!

Soon I was fast asleep and dreaming about the past.

"Mommy?" I asked rubbing my eyes tiredly as I entered her bedroom.
"Yes sweetie?" She asked as I jumped onto her bed.
"I can't sleep" I said as she stroked my hair softly.
"Let me guess? You want a lullaby?" She asked smiling kindly.
"Yes please" I said as I laid down next to her.
"Cette journée va être parfait le genre de journée dont j'ai rêvé depuis que je suis petit chaque poney se réuniront autour, dire je regarde belle dans ma robe ce qu'ils ne savent pas est que j'ai tous trompés. Cette journée allait être parfait le genre de journée dont j'ai rêvé puisque j'étais petit, mais au lieu d'avoir le gâteau avec tous mes amis pour fêter mes cloches de mariage ils ne peuvent pas sonner pour moi du tout je pouvais fout la robe je ne participer à n'importe quel gâteau vœux Eh bien je vais mentir quand je dis que par le biais de n'importe quel genre de temps je voudrai nous soyons ensemble la vérité est que je n'aime pas pour lui du tout non, je n'aime pas le marié dans mon cœur, il n'y a pas de place, mais je veux encore qu'il soit tout mine nous devons échapper avant qu'il soit trop tard trouver un moyen de sauver la journée, j'espère que je vais mentir si je dis que je ne crains pas que je peux perdre à celui qui veut se servir de lui pas de soins pour l'amour et chérir lui chaque jour car moi oh aime tant le marié Toutes mes pensées, il consomme bien Oh Shining Armor j'y serai très bientôt enfin le moment est venu pour moi d'être une mariée chance Oh le mariage nous ne fera pas il vais finissent par se marier avec une armure de Shining faux sera le mien ! Tous le mien !" She sang sweetly as I found myself falling asleep.

I felt someone shake my shoulder gently and I opened my eyes to see none other than Chris. Oh yeah that's right, I'm still here. Joy. The plane had landed. We gathered our things and soon we were off the plane and heading towards the doors of the airport. Hello New York City!