secrets

don't tell me she doesnt love me

Hiccups POV

I watched as her eyelids closed and her head rested softly against my chest. I smiled at how cute she looked while she slept. I carried her back to my house and kicked open my door and closed it with my foot again. Then I carried her upstairs and as gently as I could, I layed her down on my bed. That's when I heard voices and rather loud footsteps.

Then the door to my bedroom burst open. From it snotlout,the twins, fishlegs and Astrid appeared. They all looked at me and exchanged awkward glances. I just stared at them in confusion

"What?" I asked.

"Hiccup do you have your memory back?" Astrid asked calmly and i nodded in response. Their expressions became slightly alarmed.

"Well do we tell him or not?" Ruff nut blurted out

"Are you crazy? Stoick will have our heads!" Snotlout argued back

"Well he's gonna find out when she wakes up! I can only imagine how pissed off she'll be" Ruffnut added.

"What are you talking about? Tell me what? And can you please try to keep it down! I don't want to wake her" I interrupted stealing a glance at her sleeping figure

"Lets talk downstairs" Astrid suggested and i nodded in agreement. We all headed downstairs and I closed the door quietly behind us.

"Now tell me what? Why will elsa be angry with me?" I asked.

"Do you remember what elsa said to you when you saw her at your mother's dragon sanctuary?" Fishlegs asked. I nodded in response. It was strange to say the least. I had always loved her and she seemed so angry.

"Well its not because you didn't visit her" Astrid said from where she sat beside me

"Then why? Just tell me what's going on!" I demanded impatiently

"Your father sent a letter to elsa. I don't know the specifics of it but I do know that it said something like you were only pretending to love her and in secret you thought of her as a monster. And that you or any of us never wanted to see her again. And he also put your signature on it to make her think you wrote it. I sat back in the couch and i let that information sink in. How could my own father do that to me? He knew I loved her. Why couldn't he just accept That? What if because of what my own father did she stopped loving me? Please don't tell me she doesnt love me anymore.

"Why?" I finally asked speaking my mind.

"Because when he overheard that she could freeze her entire kingdom he was scared that she would hurt you" elsa would never. I loved her and she loved me. But did she even love me anymore? What if she moved on? What if she has someone else in her life now? The thought of her in another man's arms is just too much to bear

"Well I'm going to leave before she freezes our buts off! And did you even know you could do that hiccup?" Snotlout commented shocked and I nodded

"Shes also the queen of arendelle"

"Shes a queen!? How come you didn't tell us?" They looked even more shocked at this. It was a bit of a shock for me as well.

"She didn't want me too. Snotlout can you fly to arendelle and let her sister know shes safe?"

"Why cant you do it?" He demanded annoyed

"Because I need to stay with elsa. Looks like I'm gonna have some explaining to do when she wakes up"

Elsas POV

As my senses slowly began to reawaken the first thing I felt was a pair of hands very gently holding my thigh. They felt like a man's hands. I felt a slight stinging pain from where the man was holding me. Slightly alarmed i shot open my eyes to see that it was hiccup. Wait hiccup? Hiccup threw a glance towards me and once our eyes met he smiled a warm kind smile. Why is he smiling at me like that?

"I didn't mean to wake you" that's when I realized that he was trying to put some gauze around the stab wound on my leg.

"Am I hurting you?" He asked softly and i shook my head in response a little shocked. That's when I realized I wasnt in my clothes. How did I get these on me?

"I changed you while you were asleep. I didnt want you to be in those dirty bloodstained clothes anymore. Besides it's not like I haven't seen you like that before or anything" I immediately turned away to hide my blush. I sat myself up and stared down at the clothes he picked out for me. Hiccup had placed one of his large green hoodie on me. It went past my knees and was surprisingly really warm. It even had his scent. Hen he finally finished and pulled me into his warm embrace.

"I was so worried about you. The second I saw you it all came flooding back to me. I remembered exactly how much I loved you. And i do love you elsa. I really really do" I have one thought on what he just said. Bullshit. He doesn't love me. All he's ever done is lie to me! I push him away and scoot to the far end of the bed desperately thing to think of a way to escape. He looked a little hurt by my actions but his normal calm and handsome expression soon returned. Stop it elsa you're supposed to hate him remember?!

"You dont love me" I spoke quietluy

"Elsa of course I do. I always have" he spoke softly towards me. I looked into his green eyes that sparkled like emeralds

"No you don't! You never have! I'm sick of your lies. I don't want your pity. I don't want anything from You! I just want to go home! I want you to leave me alone. Is this all some big joke to you? Break the ice queen heart? Shatter it into a million little pieces?" I nearly screamed at him. It felt good to finally let it out and now that I started i had to finish

"Do you even know how it felt? I loved you with all my heart hiccup! I was worried sick about you all that time in arendelle! When I finally got the chance to see you i was so happy! And then I finally get word from you and do you know what it was?" Tears threatened to spill from my eyes. He just sat there listening to me. I just felt so angry with him. My hands curled into fists and I began to whack on his chest

"All that...letter said.....was that you never loved me.....that you hated me....thought I was a monster,....lied to me.....told me to never come back to burk again!" Between each pause in my words I landed a hit on his chest. He just sat there and watched as i let out everything that I had been feeling these past few months. I felt cheated on, betrayed, angry and broken. Tears threatened to spill from my eyes but i forced myself to hold them back. I need to be strong. Why does he have to do this to me? Isnt once enough? Is he trying to pull me back in? To make me fall for him again and then snap my heart in two? For a whioe we both uust sat there in sioence. And it was slowly driving me insane

"Just say something already!" I practically screamed. A single tear slid down his cheek as he grabbed me and slammed his lips against mine