the depressed potter

Hogwarts (one day and I'm already becoming insane)

my name is Saige Sirius Potter, I'm Harry Potters twin, I'm the one no one knows about, everyone's herd of harry Potter, but not of me... we were raised together after our parents died, then, on our 11th birthday, Hagrid came and told us the truth, my story starts though, on the day we left our muggle lives behind, the day that changed our lives forever...

my name is Saige Sirius Potter, yep, daughter of Lilly Evans and James Potter, twin sister of Harry James Potter. everyone knows of my brother but not me, I'm not exactly liked, even my aunt and uncle favour Harry over me and that's saying a lot. I'm a lot smaller than my twin, the top of my head only comes up to about his chin and my frame is so petite that I've been told by several times that I resemble a skeleton but what can I say, I have a lack of food and a very fast metabolism, I inherited my mothers features mostly, long ginger wavy hair and emerald green eyes. Harry tends to baby me, I have nightmares a lot and so I creep into his bed most nights, he treats me like a young child and picks me up a lot, not that I much mind it, I find that when you grow up with no parents and what seems like the whole world against you, you end up getting very attached to the friends and family you do have, so I'm very attached to Harry, we are going to Hogwarts together which is probably for the best because I don't thinking I could last very long without him, I can't even sleep through the night without him, which is already posing a problem as boys and girls are separated at night but as Harry says, we have to take it a day at a time... 

September 1st,

we ran through the wall and onto the platform with the help of a nice lady with red hair and her children, Harry grabs my hand and leads me onto the train, me find a compartment with only one of the children from before inside, harry speaks up and asks if we can sit with him whilst I hide behind him. the boy reply's and tells us his name is Ron Weasley, Harry takes a seat and pulls me lightly onto his lap, I curl into him and let my thought take over whilst the boys talk to each other over my head. I'm jerked out of my thoughts by a girl with bushy brown hair and slightly sticking out teeth opening the door to the compartment, she shoots me a smile which I return before shoving my face into harry torso,

"has any of you seen a toad, a boy named Neville's lost one?" she asks us,

we all shake our heads and then I stop listening again,

we arrive after a while and we go into the great hall, Harry, Ron, the girl who's name I now know is Hermione and myself all get sorted into Gryffindor, everyone else begins to eat whilst I just stare at my plate unsure of what to do, I try to gain Harrys attention but he's too busy speaking to Ron so I just continue to look down at m empty plate until Hermione sits next to me and nudges my side to get me to look up at her before asking me why I'm not eating, whispering it to me to not gain unwanted attention,

"I, I'm not sure quite what to do Hermione, I tried to ask Harry but he's busy, he's never been too busy before, I don't know what to do, I don't want to get shouted at.." I whisper back, close to tears, she gives me a simperfetic look before going back too her own conversation, I sigh, feeling defeated, I slouch in my seat and stare off into space until  a professor tells all first years to follow the prefects, as I race to keep up with Harry, I bump into someone and fall to the floor, I hear two voices apologise and see a hand offer to pull me up, I take it and am soon on my feet again only to be greeted by another two of the boys from the station, they introduce themselves as Fred and George Weasley. I walk to the common room with the twins only to be met by Harry, Ron and Hermione talking in front of the fireplace, Fred tells harry to keep an eye on me and Harry doesn't even look up, I look down, suddenly finding my feet very interesting. I stand there for another hour or so in complete silence until Hermione stands up saying she's going to bed, I follow her closely, learning from my previous mistake.

its the middle of the night when I start awake but my hand finds its way  to my mouth before the scream that was building up in my throat can escape, I swallow it back down and sob quietly to myself until I can see the sun rising over the black lake, illuminating the womping willow with its golden rays. I dress quickly and descend into the common room once again however this time, I retreat to a large arm chair before the fire place and curl up on top of it, clutching a pillow to my chest. I stay like that until Fred and George enter the room and sit down beside me, they greet me quietly and I nod, still not sure whether my voice will betray me or not, I barely slept and I didn't eat all yesterday, I have no energy to talk and don't wish to test my luck, not yet. before I know it my eyes are closing an my head is rolling back onto my shoulders, I feel my self fall back onto someone's chest and can hear too slightly familiar voices having a conversation but I can only actually understand little bits of it,

"Is she asleep?" "well I sure hope so..." "why?" "because I don't want to have to explain that one to her brother..."

"she's so tiny"

"do you think she's okay?"

"we should wake her" "yes, before Harry comes down..."

and that's the last thing I hear before I feel someone shaking me, I start awake and turn in my seat trying to see who's holding me up, I come face to face with Fr-geo-Fred? yes, Fred! Fred Weasley, I jump out of my skin, I scramble to get up and look at the time, 7:30am, I ask him how long I've been asleep for and he said two hours, I nod and ask him if he'd seen Harry, he reply's with a no, I nod.