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Dakota

One week later

Blair is in a coma in the hospital. The doctors say it's his body's way of repairing damage but since it's his on body And not done by the doctors they don't know when or if he will ever wake up .

This is the first moment I've had on my own in a week since it happened I've been interviewed by the police over and over again and my family are always here for "moral support " .

Today is the day of the funerals my friends parents decided to have a joint funeral as it meant everyone in my school and family members can all morn together .

They asked me to say a few words .
How can I make a speech about all my friends at once especially since I know that all off this was my fault

I jump into my mums car and she drives to the grave yard . It's really busy it's filled with family members and people from my school people that I'll have to be friends with now because I don't have any friends any more . I get out the car and the talk by people goes quiet and they all look at me

I look to the floor and pretend not to notice my mum puts her arm around my shoulder and guide's me through the crowd

After speaking to Ivory and robins family were asked to take our seats the priest asks us to pray for them then he asks me to get up and say a few words I get up and walk to the microphone and speak
" hello everyone if you don't know who I am I'm Dakota and I was close to Ivory Scarlett Robin Paige and Evan " I can feel my self starting to cry as words can't express how I feel now
" I didn't write a speech because words can't describe how much these people meant to me even though I didn't tell them that when they were still with us so I'll start one at a time . Ivory she was the most kind and pleasant person I've ever met she was always so willing to help me with anything she cared the troubles of everyone else . Evan was so up beat to even function he took care of Paige and she took of him . Paige well I hurt Paige and I can't even express how much it hurts me knowing shes gone with out her realising how much she meant to me . Robin she had so much courage to say what was right even to me when I was wrong she told me I was she was so straight forward . Scarlett stuck with me through thick and thin she was a true friend . They all were and now here I am and I'm going to have the rest of life to think about this " I say and I walk away from the microphone and sit back down

30 minutes later

After speaking to people and my friends parents I jump into the car with my mum and I just think about everything that's happened . Blair the thought of him never waking up makes me feel sick . I have decided what I'm going to do .

I run up to my room and sit on my bed and I look through my bag for the pills that I had stolen from my mum the day before I opened the lid and poured them out into my hand there was about 15 I grabbed my bottle of water out my bag and started taking the pills I can't feel anything yet but I knew I would I can feel the world around me spin

I thought of Blair and how he might never wake up again and how if he does I won't be there and then I can feel myself stop thinking and I start to shake I can her my mums muffled screams and then it all went black