Delani's P.O.V
Abel sits in the chair that was next to my bed and I sit up scooting away from him.
He took noticed and sighed scooting his chair back.
I fold my hands in my lap and look down at them.
Minutes pass and it's just a silence between us.
"Are you going back to speak or are you just going to keep staring at me?" I ask getting annoyed.
"Baby, I'm sorry for everything. Im sorry that this happened to you. I'm sorry that I was dumb enough to go and cheat on you. I'm sorry for everything and I really regret everything. If I could go back in time I wouldn't hesitate to take it all back."
"But you can't." I state.
"I know and I'm so fucking sorry for hurting you. I love you so much and I hate myself for doing this to you. You're the best thing that has happened to me and I completely ruined it."
"Why?" I ask as I feel my throat start to tighten.
"I don't know baby, I was being stupid and dumb. I wasn't thinking with my head. I was going crazy; sexually. And I tried to wait for you, I really wanted to wait for you. But when Luciana came on to me, I couldn't stop her. I know I should have, but....." He trails off.
So he cheated on me, because he hasn't had sex in over six months?
That's the most stupidest thing I have ever heard, but I guess it's better than him cheating on me because he has feelings for Luciana.
Either way he cheated on me and I don't know if I forgive him.
"If you would have just waited one more day. Just one more day Abel, then we wouldn't be in this situation."
He didn't speak for a moment but I guess realization hits him. "Baby, I'm so sorry."
"Stop, saying sorry!" I practically yell and look at him. "You're not sorry."
"Yes I am." He says getting up and coming to the bed.
I move away from him, "I thought you loved me." I say as tears fill my eyes.
"I do love you. Shit baby I love you more than anything."
I wipe the tears that have fallen from my face.
"I knew I shouldn't have fallen for this. All of this was a mistake. I should've said no that day in the classroom."
"You don't mean that," his voice cracks.
"Yes, I do Abel. I mean every word."
"Baby, we can fix this." He says touching my hand.
I flinch and move my hand away from his.
"You need to leave." I tell him.
"Leave? No we need to work this work. I'm not leaving until we work this out and we're together again."
"There's no point in working it out! I can't do this, not with me knowing that you cheated on me with Luciana."
"Baby, look don't think about that. We can move past this."
"Why was it her? I thought you said that she left you alone when I left."
"She did. But for the past month she's been talking to me again. And I know I should've ignored her like I would usually do but." He sighs and runs his hands over his face. "I don't know what came over me."
I wipe my tears off of my face and shake my head, "I can't do this. You need to leave."
"I'm not leaving, unless I know things between us will be the same as before."
Does he really think that we can go back to being the way we were before? Even if we tried something still will be off. Trust won't be there, and what's a relationship without trust?
I love Abel, I will always love him. But I won't be able to be in a relationship knowing he slept with another woman while he was with me.
I hesitantly grab his hands and hold them in mine, "I love you Abel--"
He gets ready to say it back but I stop him, "Just listen. I love you, I really do. But I just can't continue in this relationship knowing what you did with Luciana. If I did I would be hurting myself, and I don't want to-- I can't do that. Do you understand what I'm saying?" I ask him quietly.
He looks at me with tear filled eyes, "So what, that's it? No more us? You're going to let this one little slip up break us apart?"
"Abel--"
"No, baby I love you. I fucking love you, and I'm not letting you go so easily. I messed up, really bad. I messed up everything for us and I'm sorry." His tears spill from his eyes, "I'm sorry, and I know you don't believe me but I am. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I can't tell you how sorry I am."
I frown and let go of his hands so I can wipe his tears away.
This is the first time I've seen Abel cry and to say it's heartbreaking wouldn't describe anything.
"I love you too Abel and I know you're sorry. But I can't be in a relationship with you right now. Not with everything that's happened."
"I-- can I still be here for you though?" He asks sniffling.
I nod, "Yes. You can."
He nods back and silence falls between us again.
I want to more than anything be with Abel even after what he's done. I missed him these last couple of days. But I just need to focus on myself right now and heal mentally and emotionally. I know that I will take Abel back sooner or later. I can't function without him, I know that and he knows that.
But this is for the best.
I cup Abel's cheek with my hand and bring my lips to his for a quick peck, to let him know that everything's okay.
But deep down I know that nothing is okay.
Nothing will be the same.
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Sorry I took so long dudes. I started school yesterday and it's been rough ya know.
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