I'll Follow You (GirlxGirl)

36. I wait for you

We are in the middle December now and it is so cold in this big house, that I am freezing my feet off. The snow has fallen fast to the ground and I can't go out without getting my shoes drowned in it. Sky loves it though. I don't see why, but now she is not happy. Where she is standing right in front of me looking down at the table I ordered. She does not look pleased, but I did not really expect that.

"You bought a round table?" Sky says upset, and I itch my neck uncomfortably with her frustration.

"Yes, I did." I answer, and she rubs her forehead.

"Why?" She wonder and I feel the anger in me.

"Well, when I hit my head on that damn thing. It hurt, a lot and I don't want one of my children to hurt them self on the table when they run or like me fall down from the damn couch." I explain irritated and she put her hand over her mouth to hide her laugh.

"It was not funny, honey." I grumble. The scar is right under the one I got from the accident years ago. Neither of them is going to fade, just like the other ones. And not like I hate those I already have. Don't tell Sky I said that.

"Okay," She laid her arms around me.

"You are right, Hunt." She smiles as she lean into my lips with hers and it makes my fury go away.

"It's nice to see you annoyed." She grin and I roll my eyes. How can something like that be nice?

"I am not annoyed." I tell her, but she just chuckles and it makes me smile.

"Okay, I am annoyed." I say as I kiss her cheek. She takes my hand and start dragging me after her. I follow her up to our bedroom confused. Until she starts moving down the zipper on my hoodie, and it makes my heart beat fast. I felt uncomfortable after last time, when I disappointed her and I am scared to do it again as I take a step back from her. It makes her close her eyes and sigh.

"You are not even going to let me try now?" She asks, not irritated, but worried and I can see it in her brown eyes.

"Can you tell me what is wrong?" She wonder and I swallow hard.

"I-I don't want to make you disappointed, or upset." I tell her intimidated, but honest. It makes her cup my cheeks and force me to look into her brown soft eyes. I love those eyes.

"Hunti, the only way you make me upset is when you are ashamed of yourself, and you don't have a reason to be that, because I love you. I love everything about you, just like you do with me." She tells me calmly as she strokes my cheeks.

"It feels like we are right where we started, Hunter." She says and sigh.

"I know who you are and I don't blame you, because I chose to stay with you. I love you, loved you since you came in that goddamn door." She chuckles and it makes me smile. That was a scary and an amazing day. Stepping into that big house. I was frightened of what was about to come, but the blond girl that stood next to her mother, was the one that made it all go away. Her soft brown eyes, that never left me.

"I just don't understand why you are unsure about yourself," She tries to move her hand under my shirt and I bite my inner cheeks as I feel her warmth on my skin.

"Because you are beautiful and amazing." She tells me, but I look down uncomfortable as I feel her hand move away from my stomach. I close my eyes of the anger towards myself and the next thing I know is a kiss on the forehead.

"I wait for you." She whispers and I know she will, but for how long? I can't let her wait for years, I am not going to let her, even if I don't turn this around. She should leave me if I can't do it. I don't want her to go, but I can't watch her like this until the day I die. But I am not going to let it happen, I am too stubborn for that, because I love her and I don't want her to walk away from me.