Prose Red, Violent Blue

she's made me pathetic, melancholy is my middle name (prose )

Dedicated to @kaiismyhubby

although you're probably going to ignore this.

well, me, here we are again,

back in this grotesque abyss.

in this intricate, unfathomable labyrinth.

you know you brought this on yourself.

You knew, and yet you continued.

now look where were are again.

back to square one.

what's new, everyone leaves.

i could swear to never fall in love again

but what's the use of making a vow you're definitely going to break?

They tell me to chill out, but how am I supposed to not take relationships seriously?

albeit i do that, too much so.

and girl, every time I see you it rips me apart little by little

and you updated a story of yours that I I forgot to delete from my library.

Every time I pass you by it looks as if

you haven't changed at all.

that bright smile, those radiant eyes,

only frowning when making eye contact with me.

they say, better the demon you know than the savior you don't,

but you were a sweet little mean little demon that I used to know.

I think it's sad how we didn't even last a month, but then again;

who cares how long you last if you don't last as a couple for a lifetime?

the scary thing about dating is that

either you lose them,

or you marry them.

and just like Adele says,

we could've had it all

but you threw us into the flames

and now

everything just takes me back

to when you were there.

but it don't matter, it clearly

doesn't tear you apart anymore.

or maybe it never did.

my friend says "loving is like gambling." I agree.

Sometimes when you take the risk

you win happiness

temporarily.

but eventually you'll lose everything

and when you do

you'll pay the stakes with your heart.

I guess eventually I'll turn stupid enough to fall in love again

but until then I guess

I'll just keep missing you.

you know how hard it is to ignore you

when you stand out so much

I act angry and disgusted every time I see you

but inside I'm just dying,

so I speed-walk away from you every time.

you've made me pathetic.

EDIT : Oops, published this without an AN.

anyway sorry for the long hiatus and repetitive themes

thanks for sticking with me guys

If you're reading this no matter who you are, I hope you have an awesome day.