It has been a while, hasn't it? I can't remember the last time I actually sat down and wrote something meaningful. Something that I genuinely thought could help someone else. The truth is I've been having a pretty bad time and I'm no expert on the things I write.
I started to write this book when I was about a month away from being 16. Things weren't too bad then. I had anxiety, panic attacks here and there and I was kinda depressed. My health was pretty awful and I was dealing with what is now an eating disorder.
I'm now a few days away from being 17 which is crazy to even think about. Looking back at the past year a lot has changed for me. I somehow made it through taking GCSEs despite having a lot going on. I got 10 GCSEs A-C. For me that's pretty amazing considering I had a lot of time off due to illness. I'm now doing my A Levels which I'm loving.
Things seem pretty great but my anxiety is out of control. I've been having multiple bad panic attacks everyday. I'm sat at home now even though I should be at school. I've had a week off due to my anxiety. With anxiety and a panic disorder you can get pretty depressed. Just yesterday I was borderline suicidal. I was diagnosed with anorexia a few days ago.
Life is pretty crazy but I'm trying not to let the bad control my life. At the minute I can't leave my house because it's too much for me to cope with but I'm hoping that soon I can. I want to be happy, less anxious and go to university to become a nurse.
But who knows what will happen? The only thing that I can do is be positive and work hard to become a better version of myself. It's all anyone can do when things get pretty bad.
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The Self Help Book
RandomI don't expect this book to help everyone or to change anyone's life. But if this can help at least one person then it would be worth it c: Credit to Demi and Pearce for editing <3
