Stars in the Sky (SkyDoesMinecraft Fanfic)

Chapter 8 - Do I deserve to be Sky?

A/N: Thank you very much to Boo from EnderGirls for drawing me the fantastic fanart that you see on the side of this chapter! I have received some more fanart, but that will have to wait until next chapter ;)

I stared at the message. I couldn’t believe it. I had misjudged Darren, assumed that he would never even acknowledge my existence… and yet here he was, calmly asking me to talk to him. I couldn’t help but smile, and shortly after, I started crying.

I wasn’t worthy of all these subscribers. I didn’t care for them. It was shameful, the amount of times I had ignored an email, the amount of times I had ‘forgotten’ to call back all those people who had given me their Skype. Now I knew how it felt to be just another fan, brushed aside by my idol. I had thought that Darren would be the exact same as me, letting the fame get to his head. But the simple fact that he had recognized me was enough to make me think otherwise.

He was willing to give it all up for me. I never thought that a person like him could even exist, but that was only because of me. I was a selfish person, only liking people who could bring more success to my channel. When I finished EJM: Butter Edition, I remembered feeling annoyed when Bodil40 asked me to play with him. I didn’t want to play with such a small YouTuber. The first time I played with him, I hated him.

At heart, though, I had enjoyed playing with him. I realised that a YouTuber didn’t have to be popular to be funny. Darren was just one example of that. The tears were flowing down my face now, as I remembered everyone who had asked me to record with them, and everyone who I had rejected. If they didn’t have at least a hundred thousand subscribers, I wouldn’t even consider playing Minecraft with them.

I – well, Sky – had the dream life. Yet I had taken that for granted, and neglected my power. When I was a small YouTuber, I was much more caring for my subscribers. Whenever I hit a milestone, I thanked all my subscribers, and even made special videos for them. But as the numbers went up, my passion went down. I viewed these milestone videos as a chore, and stopped making them, deciding to livestream instead, or even doing nothing at all.

Now that I had such a small amount of subscribers, I felt like I didn’t want to make YouTube videos any more. Deep down, I knew that I was only doing YouTube as an easy way to get money. I abused my power, making the same videos over and over again just so that I wouldn’t lose any subscribers, and thus not lose any money. I wanted to play it safe, keeping all the money for myself. I hardly ever introduced new YouTubers to my crew.

However, Darren was different. He cared for his subscribers. I supposed that was because he didn’t actually have that many subscribers, and he could afford to do that, but he was in my shoes now. I remembered that in his survival series, he always gave a shoutout to each new subscriber. I never did that, even when I was just a kid making crappy little Runescape videos. Darren didn’t view his subscribers as just a number. He viewed them as people.

I noticed another message from Sky (or Darren) in the chat.

SkythekidRS -> [me]: Check your youtube inbox. i sent you a message

Quickly, I minimised the Minecraft launcher and went to YouTube. As soon as I went to my YouTube inbox, I saw the message from SkyDoesMinecraft. Oh my god. Did Sky want to record with me? I opened the message, heart pounding, and realised what I had just thought. I wasn’t a fan of Sky. I was Sky himself. I couldn’t forget that.

After reading the message, I followed Sky’s instructions, going to Gmail and composing a new message. I decided that the best way to solve this would be to meet each other in real life and having a proper conversation. I guessed that I should go to Sky’s house and have a chat there, as my mum would probably freak out if she saw someone so much older than me looking for me.