Fairytales That Never Came True

Better For Me

A lot of guys have made promises to me.

They have all broken my heart.

I have not had just one guy love me and not hurt me.

I'm so stressed out, my sleeping hours are irregular and I guess I just feel used and burnt out.

I feel as though they were all different lessons;

because with each one I went through something not the same, but still included the same pain.

And I find myself alone when I just want someone to love me.

Did I push certain ones away?

Or did certain ones never really love me anyway?

How am I to ever know?

I guess I won't.

I was given this pain to learn what it takes and become stronger;

So why do I feel weaker each time with each mistake or lie?

Why am I not yet invincible to man, pain, lies, and mistakes?

Why am I still subjected to these struggles and heartaches and heartbreaks and

wanna be's who are just fakes?

Who really cares about me now, I wonder?

Who cares about me still, enough to the point that they wish things could be different;

Cause I do too.

I probably still love him, just as much as I still love you.

But there is only so much my heart can take.

Only so much that I can do.

It hurts to be heartbroken and alone.

But in the end, no matter what I want, or how I feel, 

I realize it's better for me then being with any of you.