My Favorite Game

CHAPTER 43

This happened right after she gave the letter to Erin and anyway guys, Arranged Marriage to my Boss is now a published book under Summit; Sizzle. Grab your copy now!

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I was depressed at the moment and I don't know what to do with my fucking life. Tumingin ako sa salamin. It didn't look like me anymore. Who the hell is she? I looked like a fucking human eyebags. I haven't sleep for weeks. Thanks for the coffee who's making me awake all the time.

But you know fucking what? I don't like sleeping. It makes me remember everything. Every. Fucking. Thing. From being a child up to now. I hate myself. Today my sister and I was abducted again. But we survived. We fucking survived. She was with her husband and I am here alone in the hospital bed. Why would I ask her to be with me? She couldn't remember a single thing about me.

Pumasok ang doktor at naabutan ako na nagsusulat sa isang papel.

"It helps, Quinn?"

Tinaasan ko s'ya ng kilay. The thing about this fucking life. There are times that I want to slap everyone in the face with the mere face that they're standing a few yards from me and taling and talking and asking uninterested questions. I don't want them to talk especially when I'm not in the mood. I just had a very bad day.

It's not actually normal to get kidnapped and survive. But for me, it is.

"May gusto ka ba kainin?"

Nakatingin lang ako salamin. Looking at my wasted face. I looked fucking old. I looked fucking bad. I am bad. I feel bad. I feel worst. I feel everything all at once. But I feel numb at the same time. For a few moment I could feel the pain ripping my heart out but with a snap. I don't know... I think I'm going crazy.

Napasabunot ako sa buhok ko at umupo sa sahig.

"Ericka, may masakit ba?" nag-aalalang tanong ng doktor at lumapit sa akin.

I couldn't answer. I don't know what to say. Everything fucking hurts today. Everything. I don't know where to start. Where to go. How to breathe. How to say a single fucking word just to tell them I'm not okay. It's not the Ericka I knew. She's so braved, fierce... She's an evil. This is not her.

I gritted my teeth. I don't trust anyone right now including myself. Lumayo ako sa kanya.

"I can help you."

"Don't move." I growled. I don't want to be here. I could feel everything was suffocating me. Thought it's a fucking weird feeling but I wanted to see the man who's responsible to this lucky child inside my womb.

"Ericka... It's normal to feel like this. Don't be scared."

"I said don't move!" sigaw n'ya rito. "I need to borrow your phone." utos n'ya. "Give me your fucking phone. I need to call Rake..." nanghihina n'yang sabi. Hindi n'ya alam kung bakit si Rake ang gusto n'ya tawagan.

She fucking don't know. But only she feel is she could help her. She could protect what's inside her.

"Rake?"

"R-rake Alicante." she murmured. "I need to call him. I don't want to be here. I don't know who to call. He's the only person I know who could help me. Please." she begged.

Napatingin ang doktor sa kanya. Pinag-aralan ang mukha n'ya. Huminga muna ito ng malalim at nagulat s'ya nang bigla nitong ibigay ang cellphone sa kamay n'ya.

"One call and we're going to start our check-up. Halos lahat ng mga nurses dito sinasabunutan mo. You have to obey sometimes, Ericka. Hindi makakatulong iyan sa anak mo."