Journal Diary Thingy

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I am confused on life

First of all for some reason Dora is on TV and I just heard her say 'kinkachu' or something like that... Wtf?

Also I just feel like dying but at the same time I don't feel like it.

I kinda just want to look around to see if I find anything sharp that will create a seep cut.

But I won't. Its been 4 months since I've cut and want to make it to at least 6 months clean

I feel like the world is just closing in on me and I can't do anything but just stand there and watch everything fall. My friends, family, and just everyone in general.

All I'm waiting to do is watch everyone leave

Leave me and my insanity

...

I'm not ready for that to happen but it will, and I can't do anything about it.

I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so lost and confused that nothing makes sense anymore. I feel like I've upset or disappointed everyone I know today. All my friends and family. Everyone.