I dont even know who I am anymore. I feel myself slipping from my friends and family....I dont think I feel any emotion other than hurt and self disappointment.
People tell me that they love me but I dont even know what love is.
It is so akward for me to say"I love you too" because I know I probably don't love you.
You say you are proud of me but in order for thay statement to work on me, I have to be proud if me and frankly, I am not.
Good is never enough.
I think i've cried a river.
Everything is just a routine.
Wake up, go to school, do homework 5 hours later, and get 4 hours of sleep. Then wake up with a headache.
Over and over and over again.
Nothing's the different, everything is the same.
Robotic.
Calculated.
Unemotional.
My mind is like a void and I see no happiness anymore.
I want to get closer to God but I dont know how to even start.
I have no supporters.
I envy the people who's parents cheer them on.
I am my own cheerleader.
If it's not convenient for you, you won't be present.
Nothing I want to do is convenient to you.
I am my own partner.
The glory I once had is faded.
I am a robot, no feelings found here.
It is sad because I once was a carefree person three years ago.
Now I cant even do anything that makes me happy.
Distractions are everywhere.
Surrounded by people who I know won't be there for me.
You only like me because of what I can do for you and how I make you feel...
I hope I can come out this void I call my mind...
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Meraki
Random(Adj.)/[may-rah-kee] 1)modern Greek word for putting creativity, soul, and love into something you do 2)to pour oneself into whatever you are doing