HI THIS IS A BAD ONE SHOT I WROTE IT BC I WAS BORED LOL SORRY IF YOU LOSE BRAIN CELLS!!
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Alexander William Gaskarth.
The name never left my head. He never left my head. I was hooked around him like a baby was hooked around their mom on the first day of school, never wanting to let go.
Alex and I have been together for a couple of years, and I was head of heels for him. And hopefully he felt the same about me.
I wasn't in love with just him, I was in love with everything he did.
I love when he wakes up and the first thing he does is kiss my forehead. I love when he's showering he washes his body before he washes his hair. I love how he has a scrapbook for us and brings it everywhere we go. I love the way he crinkles his nose when he find something gross. I love how he always carries me when my feet start to hurt. I love the way he eats his cereal, milk before he pours it in.
When I first met Alex I was in love with how he wasn't nervous or scared about anything. When he wanted to do something, he'd do it without any questions asked, and I adored that.
"What are you thinking about babe?" He asked.
"You." I replied. It sounded cheesy, but it was genuinely true.
"Bad things or good things?"
"Good things, of course. There is nothing bad about you to think about." I said.
He smiled at me and leaned over to place a kiss upon my lips. "God, I am so in love with you." He mumbled.
"Same to you."
I pulled away when I felt my phone buzz in my pocket. I pulled it out and saw that it was a text from Rian.
"Rian wants to know if we could meet him at the bar in town," I said to Alex. "Should I say yes?"
"Yeah, tell him we'll be there in a few minutes."
I texted Rian back and got up from the couch and went into our room. I went through the closet and took out my sweater to wear to the bar.
"That's my favorite sweater on you," Alex said, coming up to me and wrapping his arms around my waist. "Every time you're in it all I can think about is how adorable and innocent you look in it."
I felt my cheeks heat up a little as he started kissing my neck gently. Alex was such a flirt and a big tease, but I loved that.
"If you keep this up we'll be late." I said. Alex pulled away and let out a loud laugh.
"You wouldn't mind that, would you?" He joked.
I rolled my eyes and swatted him away. I turned around and faced him. "You're so perfect, I'm unworthy." He said and attached my lips to his.
"Stop being gay and go get changed."
"Only gay for you," he said and smacked my ass. I let out a small yelp as he walked out the room to go into the bathroom.
Twenty minutes later, and we were finally getting in the car to go to the bar. Alex pulled out of the driveway and started driving towards the address Rian sent me.
I watched as the car in front of us started swerving and Alex started honking his horn. "Damn, people can be such idiots while driving." He mumbled.
He turned into a different lain and passed the swerving car. I turned on the radio and started looking for a station that was playing some music.
"Hey, go back to the last station." Alex demanded.
I did as he said and went back to the last station and turned it up. "Ah, I haven't heard this song in forever." He said. I realized what song it was, never too late by three days grace.
Alex started humming the song and tapping his fingers on the steering wheel to the beat.
We stopped at a red light and he looked over at me and smiled. "You know your birthday is coming up soon," he said. "We should take a trip to Florida."
"Why Florida?" I asked.
"So we can go to Disney and islands of adventures!" He said, sounding excited.
"Alright alright, we can go. I agree with that only because I want to go to Harry Potter land."
"And also the Disney princesses." He added for me.
"Go." I told him when the light turned green.
And never did I realize that would be the last word I would say to him. Because the next thing I know, another car collided with ours making us spin off the road and hit a pole.
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Two months. It has been two months since Alex has passed away. The accident we were in didn't effect me a lot, but since the hit was on Alexs side, he didn't make it.
When a love one dies, they don't leave all at once, only pieces of them do.
First, it's the same stops coming for them. Every time I get the mail I'm so used to see Alex's name on some of them, but now it's just mine.
Second, is the scent starts to fade. Every time I go through Alexs clothes, the smell is gone. The side of his bed doesn't smell like him anymore, it's like he never slept there.
Third, all the phone calls and text, no more of those. No more sending "I love you" back and forth a bunch of times till someone finally gives up. No more phone calls that last for hours until one of us falls asleep when we're away.
Everything just changed in one day, in a blink. Alex was the first person I have ever loved and the first person to make me feel empty.
He was my everything but now that he's not here, it's almost like I'm left with nothing. All I have now are photos and old messages.
Alex wouldn't want me to be sitting and sobbing everyday of my life. He'd want me to go out and forget that he ever existed, but that's not going to happen. I'll always remember him, even if I move on, he'd always be in my heart and on my mind.
My love for him is everlasting and nothing will ever change.
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YONKS THIS WAS HORRIBLE LOL GOTTA BLASt
