Bucky's pov:
I feel guilt and regret everyday. Especially at night. I have nightmares of the terrible things I've done. They play over and over in my head like a carousel going round and round. I can't say it's gotten better, I wish I could. Steve senses something is wrong but I tell him I'm fine. I know I should talk to someone about it but I don't want to burden him. I'm not close with anyone else but Steve. I'd like to keep it that way. I try not come close with people. Let's just say I have some trust issues. For now I pretend I'm okay, put a smile on my face and a good attitude. I'm not depressed. It's just hard, suddenly regaining memories you didn't know you had. It takes a toll on someone. I know eventually the nightmares will stop. But I know the guilt won't go away, it's something I'll have to live with for the rest of my life.
