The Misunderstood ↠ A.C.M

Chapter 2 - Sour

"When you walk away I count the steps that you take, do you see how much I need you right now?"- When You're Gone by Avril Lavigne

"Sometimes you have to forget about all the things that are upsetting you, and focus on the things that make you happy." - Anon

~Ryan's P.O.V ~

I heard Riley's shaky breaths as she tried to stop her sobbing. Riley looked up at me, her mesmerizing grey eyes stared at me. They reflected and pooled with so many emotions ranging from pain and sorrow that were caused by her sister leaving . I felt like I should've told her that I loved her and that she was beautiful in way that lonely unnoticed people are to those that notice them.

~Riley's P.O.V~

My eyes burned from crying all day. Even though so many bad things happen to me , I considered having Ryan there a good thing. It's hard to believe he is in my life because when no one has cared for so long, it's hard to accept the fact that someone finally does. Like I said I am seventeen and in high school and my life is completely falling apart. You know how people say there's always light at the end of the tunnel, well unfortunately my tunnel was never ending and I think I would have to try very hard to find light in a dark place such as this world I was put in. I Riley Carter was neglected by everyone who was suppose to care for me and I guess when my soul drifted off I myself forgot to care .

" .. Everything will be fine." Ryan said.

" I want to believe you , I really do." But then again I am not fine , I will never be alright.

I wish there was something that could take away the pain, there was and it hurt but It felt good and it reminded me that I am still alive and breathing ...... I feel really guilty for doing this not because of me, but because of Ryan. Some part of me wanted to demonstrate what I have done to myself but then again why would I show someone something so dreadful and expect them to accept me. To be honest I don't really know why Ryan is here for me, either he is a really good friend or he feels sorry for me. I believe it's a little bit of both.

" You cant always be miserable , I know you Riley and you well get over this ." Ryan said in a hopeful tone.

Out of nowhere I started to get angry and upset , my face was a pale white , my palms were sweaty and my vision started to blur .

" You think you know me ? I don't even know me " I retorted back.

Before I recognized what I said to Ryan he picked up his things and replied with

"... thanks for pushing me away Riley thats what you always do to the ones that care for you so therefore , I am done trying to make you happy.... "

I cried myself to sleep like I did every night but this time it hit me badly because I realize I did lose something, My best friend .

I must have cried to loud because my mother came in my room. She walked in and sat next to me and she softly said ' I am here for you" . I put my head on her lap while she brushed my hair with her fingers. My mother worked very hard supporting me and my sister as always she cared a lot about me but I didn't really talk to her much because ever since my father left us she has been scared of what the future has to hold. But deep down inside I knew she would blame herself for my mistakes.

" Why is life so complicated mom ?" I asked her.

She took a deep breath and replied " , Riley I know what you did to your sister and other things that I may say I am not that proud of, I know I haven't been there for you lately and I wanted to tell you that I will love you no matter what you do .. I know you are hurting right now but sweetheart if you are going to want to get better you are going to have to put the past behind you and start changing before its to late ."

"It hurts so much, but you are right mom."

"Since you have to wake up early tomorrow you should go to sleep, and it may hurt right now but you can get your best friend back but do it fast because his heart and mind might close."

With that my mother kissed me on the forehead and closed the lights, tomorrow was the day I had to go to Ryan and tell him how stupid and sorry I am for doing that to him .

If he did happen to give me a second chance I wouldn't take it for granted because I would've never repeated the same mistake I did. That night I couldn't sleep and seriously thought I had insomnia.

Insomnia :chronic inability to fall asleep or remain asleep for an adequate length of time.........