Avalanche ▪ Alec Lightwood

▪I act▪

I sigh as he leaves, this always happens. I take some of the pills and get in bed so I can get some rest.

"I wish you were all dead!" I yell. "Don't say that Malia." Mom says. I look out the window seeing the moon and a growl escapes as I shift.

Then just as mom turns to look at me, we went towards the intersection a truck came and t-boned us. The car rolled over making us go in different directions and as a result, I ran away knowing that as soon as the car caught on fire my family was gone.

I ran in the woods trying to shift back into a human. When I did a man came towards me. I backed away in fear a shrill scream came from my throat as he neared toward me. "No! Let me go! Don't touch me!" I scream. "Malia! Wake up!" A voice says.

"Alec?" I ask seeing him when I open my eyes. "It happened again?" He asks. I nod catching my breath. "I remember now. I didn't shift after the truck hit us.

"I shifted in the car. I told them I wished they were dead." I say. No matter how many times everyone told me it really wasn't my fault, that it was the truck. None of it's true now. It was my fault.

"I'm sorry." Alec says. "I am too. I'm sorry I yelled at you." I say even though it was a few hours ago. "I'm sorry for pushing you." He says.

"Last night I was scared. I was terrified. I hate that feeling. I don't want to feel that way anymore I want to feel powerful. I act like I know what I'm doing but I don't. I act like I'm not afraid but I am. I act like I'm a great fighter but I'm not. I pretend." I say.

"You don't have to Malia." Alec says looking at me. "I know but I do." I say look everywhere but his face. "I'm gonna go shower." I say.

A/n

So I know that this chapter was a bit boring but it was a filler chapter. Anyone have any ideas? Let me know! Thanks for reading and support!

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