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t e n t h

Dear Skyler,

I cried.

I cried because I really know I'm doomed. Doomed to the dream of owning you.

I was there when you sang for her, in front of everybody. You serenaded her with a song full of love and I can't contradict myself of feeling jealous.

I cried a lot and told myself to move on because you can't grant me a happily ever after I always dreamed of.

I cried so tomorrow I won't feel the pain

So I'll feel nothing and be numb.

I cried because whatever happened I can't stop.

I can't stop loving you

I can't stop hurting myself more because loving you brings pleasure immeasurable and brings me to height unimaginable.

I cried because I'm happy.

I'm happy my love is real

Because a love without pain is not love at all.

xxx