My Songs

Afraid of the Dark

While blackness swirls
And darkness whirls
And flickers of light
Cast shadows into shadows
Shadows into shadows

While emptiness fills
With empty thrills
And jolts of hope
Are overcome by screams
Overcome by screams

What can you make of that shapeless shape?
What can you make of that hateful hate?

When this darkness enters my heart
Keeps me awake
When these dark thoughts exit my brain
Keep me away

I'm afraid of the dark
All those things I imagine
I'm afraid of the nighttime
All darkness creates sin
I'm afraid of the fear
All the things I invent
I'm afraid of the memories
Every place I went

I'm afraid of the dark
I'm afraid of what it makes me do
I'm afraid of the dark
I'm afraid, I'm afraid I'm already consumed

I'm afraid of the dark
I'm afraid of what it makes me do
I'm afraid of the dark
I'm afraid, I'm afraid I'm already consumed

I'm afraid of the dark
All those things I imagine
I'm afraid of the nighttime
All darkness creates sin
I'm afraid of the fear
All the things I invent
I'm afraid of the memories
Every place I went
I'm afraid of the darkness
Creeping in my soul
I'm afraid of the heartless
I can feel the pull
I'm afraid of the horrid thoughts
Leaking from my head
I'm afraid of the pain I'll cause
When I try not to say what I've already said

When I try not to say what I've already said
I'm afraid of the pain I'll cause
Leaking from my head
I'm afraid of the horrid thoughts
I can feel the pull
I'm afraid of the heartless
Creeping in my soul
I'm afraid of the darkness
Every place I went
I'm afraid of the memories
All the things I invent
I'm afraid of the fear
All darkness creates sin
I'm afraid of the nighttime
All those things I imagine
I'm afraid of the dark

I'm afraid of the dark
I'm afraid of what it makes me do
I'm afraid of the dark
I'm afraid, I'm afraid I'm already consumed

I'm afraid of the dark
I'm afraid of the dark
I'm afraid

A/N

I'm imagining this as a sort of dark song with a heavy beat or something. This was my attempt at a Twenty-One-Pilots-like song. Basically, it was a parallel between the fear of darkness and the hateful thoughts we have toward one another. And the line "When I try to not say what I've already said" is basically regretting the pain you caused someone else. (That's my favorite line. And so is "I'm afraid of the dark/I'm afraid of what it makes me do/I'm afraid of the dark/I'm afraid, I'm afraid I'm already consumed.") It also represents the fear of your own mind, how your mind can trick you or confuse you. That happens to me a lot.

Anyway, tell me what you think. Does anyone else like Twenty One Pilots?

For some reason, this song means more to me now than it did when I wrote it. I connect with more of it and interpret it differently and more deeply. Is it weird that I could write something for my future self? Or is that just a weird thought? I don't know.

I'm also trying to put this to music, but it's pretty hard. I'm getting there. So far it's kind of in the key of D minor.