I remember my dream now..
I dreamt that I tried to kill myself..
I put the gun to my head with a smile and pulled the trigger.
The bullet went through my head and it hurt so much that I couldnt even feel it, do u know what I mean?
I didnt die so I did it again.. and again.. and again.. and again.
the last time I put the gun in my mouth and pulled the trigger once again.
I didnt fucking die and I got mad cause all I wanted was to be dead.
I went to the hospital to see wtf went wrong and told the doctor
"I just tried to commit suicide but nothing happened"
She didnt react.
Maybe it means that if I kill myself the pain wont go away,, it'll always be fkn there no matter what.
