EVANESCE. / KTH

fourteenth entry

personal entry

i don't think anyone writes at a party,

but i am.

you invited me

to a party that

i didn't want to attend.

but i did anyways,

because this was for you.

it was at hyukjae's house.

and i was bothered by the fact

that everyone would judge me.

why is the lonely girl here?

i thought they would ask.

but fortunately enough,

no one did.

you were holding seohee's hand

and approached me,

asking if i wanted a drink.

"no, thanks."

"are you sure?" you double checked.

i confirmed by nodding my head.

"come on, tae, let's go,"

seohee said in an impatient voice,

and i got the clue that you guys

had to go somewhere.

so i stayed behind and now i'm writing.

personal thoughts

"where is the bathroom?" i asked.

a girl showed me inside hyukjae's house

and led me up the stairs on the right.

i only went to the bathroom

to have a more private space to write in,

but then i remembered that no one writes in the bathroom

and i would be holding up the line.

instead, i got out of the bathroom, and was about to call you

to drive me home,

when i saw something.

"seohee, seohee, stop,"

your voice shivered.

seohee was violently kissing you,

and i felt my heart throb.

her lips smashed into yours,

her eyes closed.

she untied her hair

and started to unbutton your clothes.

that's when i turned away.

i don't know what happened next.

but that night,

i was shattered into

a million pieces.

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